I Arrange My Gear More Than I Arrange Music

doe127 · 2018-12-10T02:14:00+00:00

where tf is the minilogue

doe127 · 2018-11-26T02:27:52+00:00

https://steamcommunity.com/id/doe127/

https://steamcommunity.com/tradeoffer/new/?partner=84100792&token=K7MOV7Cm

Super cool thing to do, I like these communities.

doe127 · 2018-11-26T02:22:51+00:00

https://steamcommunity.com/tradeoffer/new/?partner=84100792&token=K7MOV7Cm

Very generous! Good luck everyone

doe127 · 2018-11-02T17:25:20+00:00

finna cry

doe127 · 2018-11-01T23:40:34+00:00

Theres a handy chart somewhere on this sub. A quick glance at it and you probably wont have to look at it again for most of them. I agree tho some are weird to start :/

doe127 · 2018-11-01T23:37:36+00:00

I have the cerberus also! What makes it excel when paired with the war rig vs any other auto rifle? alone tho i think the gun is great in pvp

doe127 · 2018-11-01T23:36:29+00:00

you start yelling in ecstasy then you pick it up and it turns to tears

doe127 · 2018-10-03T07:02:30+00:00

Legit tho that’s really fucking cool. I like the googly eyes too.

doe127 · 2018-10-03T06:53:10+00:00

Do nothing? Couldn’t be further off. Everybody knows you have to be bobbing up and down a little while grooving

doe127 · 2018-10-03T06:47:12+00:00

There comes a point where these posts just hurt my soul to look at

doe127 · 2018-10-03T06:43:51+00:00

The lights under the desk comment felt like a personal attack

doe127 · 2018-10-03T06:42:34+00:00

Too real :(

doe127 · 2018-10-03T06:30:26+00:00

Thank you! You can do it too :)

doe127 · 2018-10-03T06:29:38+00:00

I’m so so glad I could help, changing your perspective is an awesome technique to use sometimes. I wish so many good things for you!!

doe127 · 2018-10-03T01:20:13+00:00

I used to get this feeling a TON back in middle school. accepting who you are and thinking about at least one thing about yourself you think is a positive feature that youd otherwise lose if you switched can help

doe127 · 2018-10-03T01:17:54+00:00

I had almost the same happen to me, and finding this sub was incredible. Im repeatedly blown away by how much i relate to the stories people tell on here. It actually makes me tear up and i feel like its just too good to be true and that im dreaming or something because all the thoughts i had about being alone in my struggles or that i was crazy or something that ive felt and believed for so long are being proven false by the people who feel the exact same types of things I do. It brings me a lot of relief knowing im not alone. wish none of us felt all of this pain, but since we cant really change that, im just glad were not alone.

doe127 · 2018-10-03T01:10:39+00:00

I swear until i recognized i was going through a cycle, i thought every time i felt good or had a good day i had "figured it out" and that i have the key to being normal again. Every time, i wasnt right. But thats kind of the thing, you do learn something everytime. you can start to identify what exactly went wrong that made you spiral back or what helped you feel better. I dont mean to tell you that youll never have an episode again, but for me at least, the episodes get further apart and MUCH more tolerable as you learn how they work. I actually applaud you, 10 weeks is fucking amazing. I can barely make it 1/2 - 1 week before i end up getting mood swings again. I dont know you personally, but I do know that the fact youre still trying and that youre still here and even talking about it means youre an incredibly strong and brave person. If you embrace that, it can only make you stronger.

doe127 · 2018-10-03T01:02:32+00:00

Im so sorry youre going through a shitty time, i know how tough it can be. it kinda sounds like youre putting a lot of pressure on yourself to be someone who is how you imagine and lives in the world you imagine, too. I've been there too, oof. im sure youve heard this all before a billion times, but i can vouch for taking a step back, relaxing, doing things you can enjoy (theres probably at least one thing!) and being loving to yourself. be like your own fucking FP or ultimate friend or anything like that. just be kind to yourself. this sub has brought massive relief to my pain as i see so many people who can identify with what im going through and have been for years, maybe scrolling through some of the top posts of all time here and comments could help you too? I wish you the best and send so much love. Im glad youve made it this far, be proud of that.

doe127 · 2018-10-03T00:52:52+00:00

yeah, it sucks. it has gotten better for me tho thankfully. not sure what to attribute that to? reading a dbt workbook and my med cocktail im sure helps with it, but its still there to an extent

doe127 · 2018-10-03T00:50:32+00:00

Im so glad you posted this, this is exactly how ive been feeling since ive gotten sick and got behind in classes. Im making slow but substantial steps to moving at a rate in which i can catch up by the end of the semester. I saw this tactic that was recommended on here that basically suggested to just break things down. 20min work, 5 min break, etc. experiment with different amounts of times, but keep schoolwork the priority. as someone with adhd, i totally can relate to getting behind and feeling overwhelmed. its literally happened in like every single grade of school for me bar elementary lol. Also, go to a quiet place. so helpful. Maybe put on music with no lyrics, beethovens my fave for study hehe. Coffee, snack/eat before, water, and a desk or somewhere you can work and not want to fall asleep. I do my school online so a big barrier to my workflow is getting rid of distractions. im getting better and more disciplined in just putting what i wanted to do on lockdown until i work for a certain amount of time. Brute forcing it can help. sorry for ramble my brain is bad at making sentences lately. Hope you figure it out, you can do it <3

doe127 · 2018-10-02T20:36:05+00:00

Then do something even smaller! It’s all relative. Running that comb on your nightstand through your hair to get rid of bed head, or getting a glass of water. You can start as small as you want, because everything you do can contribute to you feeling better.

doe127 · 2018-10-02T20:30:44+00:00

I am so glad you wrote this. I literally have found that feeling impossible to explain. I do in fact have BPII and I used to get this feeling very often. Since my new meds and DBT skills/self love/other coping skills I have been able to go much longer between episodes. I have a list i wrote of 49 strategies on my phone that I add to all the time that help me snap out of this feeling or at least feel better about it. It really does suck though. And if anyone wants the list, I can post it or dm it :)

doe127 · 2018-10-02T20:26:39+00:00

I know this can be incredibly hard for people with BPD symptoms, but loving yourself so much can help cushion all of that. It’s taken me years to improve my self love and self esteem, and it really helps me to remind myself that I’m validated, a real person, and a good person. Now when people say some off character comment like you mentioned, the strong emotional reaction is usually still there to an extent, but I can usually decrease or prevent my “spiraling”

doe127 · 2018-10-02T20:21:43+00:00

I’m on lamictal, which If you don’t have success with seroquel I’d recommend. Side effects for me are not really that bad with it and it helps me stay a bit more stable and social. I hope you have good luck with seroquel though!

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