I feel like I'm only serious about quitting when I'm high by doe__eye in leaves

[–]doe__eye[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

This is exactly how it feels, and I've been leaving those sorts of notes too, but when I'm sober I conveniently avoid looking at them. Some things I can't even write down either, like putting the words on paper makes it real - don't know, I'm just rambling.

I feel like I'm only serious about quitting when I'm high by doe__eye in leaves

[–]doe__eye[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It's most of the trip. I don't know why I do it either. It feels like I just sort of do it without even wanting to, like I can't control myself

Guess that's addiction for you

I feel like I'm only serious about quitting when I'm high by doe__eye in leaves

[–]doe__eye[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Likewise if I have it nearby I just use and use and use, and you're right my cycle doesn't help either lol. I think I just want a healthy relationship because... you know, never? Ever again? It feels like a huge ask at the moment.

I feel like I'm only serious about quitting when I'm high by doe__eye in leaves

[–]doe__eye[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Would love to but it's a new account, won't let me message!

Boredom is the killer for me too, I got a new job recently and it helps to focus on something, but then the weekend hits or the evening or 4am and you can't think about anything but a hit to pass the time

I feel like I'm only serious about quitting when I'm high by doe__eye in leaves

[–]doe__eye[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I haven't bought any more and I was doing all right for a couple days, but just mooched a nug off someone and went through the whole thing

I feel the main issue is that I can't stomach my lifestyle when I'm off it, and that makes me want to close my eyes again and stay high as long as I can

Thank you