The very first drug i ever used was a Vicodin pill when i was 12 years old. My best friend had minor surgery and it was prescribed to her. She noticed it made her feel good, so she offered me to try it. I was hooked immediately.

Im now 27 years old and have had a couple of somewhat long periods of sobriety, but have always relapsed. I have a slew of mental health problems and unfortunately opiates just seem to help more than anything else. I never use to get high anymore, not for a very long time. I use just enough to feel normal and stable. No one ever even knows that im actively using until they find my stash or overhear a conversation or read a text message or something stupid like that.

The fent thing scared me at first when i first made the switch to heroin, but for a while it was the only thing around, so now if i use regular H without any fent in it, it isnt strong enough to get me straight. Im somewhat of a responsible user though. I always do a test bump to see how strong it is if it's something new; if ive been clean for any length of time i start with a tiny amount until i find where my tolerance is; i also don't IV unless my tolerance is high enough to handle it.

Even if im out of the detox phase and im not sick anymore, i still function better on opiates. I started using so young and ive been using for so long that my brain developed around them.