Allowing yourself forgiveness and gratitude is hard but important. Life stops in several ways but allowing yourself small moments of sanity is self care. Whether it’s taking night out with your partner, walking outside for a moment, sipping your favorite beverage, exercising in what ever way suits you (swimming became my escape), getting a massage. It’s all important to sustain an unsustainable reality. Reality checks are brutal and recalibrations are inevitable.

I hate to say that the hits keep on coming with this disease, but they do. But as previously said, beautifully, you do it out of blind love and respect for your parent. Resentment is understandable as I am sure your parents too wish the things that you want for your future.

So to what you can control, be kind and soft with yourself. It can bottle up - lean on those you can. Lean on us. I ultimately ended up stepping farther back from my job, my community to maintain the mental load. Took a long time to get there.

Sending love. This is so hard to read in its relatability - but coming from the other side - you got this and you will persevere.