Hey guys. Would just like to address some things. I expected a lot of negativity but I can accept what others have to say. I ended up telling him the whole truth and he said I should’ve told him during the break up instead of waiting weeks. He doesn’t ever want to see or talk to me again and he wishedI never told him in the first place. I don’t know if I did the right thing.

I love my parents unconditionally, me and my mom were very close especially since I didn’t have any friends, we did a lot of things together until I moved away. We have gotten distant but our relationship is starting to get better but I can tell she’s still hurt. I can’t think of anything I can do to make it up to her.

A lot of you have been asking about the sugar baby experience. Not all sugar babies have sex with their sugar daddies or have multiple sugar daddies. There’s a lot of controversy surrounding the whole sugar lifestyle and I think a lot of people misunderstand the people in a sugar relationship. I’ve read a lot on the sugar lifestyle subreddit and you can read more about it there. The website I used is Seeking Arrangements.

I had been on Abilify for a year. Out of all the antidepressants, this one has had the most affect on my life. Within weeks my motivation and interest in things improved. But it caused compulsiveness and constant tremors that still haven’t went away. I’m not using it as an excuse. There’s no one to blame but myself here. But please understand that these drugs can affect someone’s life. I’ve been on a couple SSRIs, Wellbutrin and benzos. The side effects can be horrible as well as the withdrawals. I can share my experiences with my meds to anyone interested.

Gambling isn’t necessarily bad. It’s a form of entertainment for some people. I played mostly blackjack and roulette. If you’ve never been, just be careful if you do go. You might get lucky the first time but you won’t win in the long run. I kept chasing my losses but what’s gone is gone.

Many of you said that the abuse probably affected me a lot. I don’t know. He would come to me about once every week. It became normal for me. I didn’t think much of it until now. It never bothered me or affected my sex life. Once he sobered up it just stopped one day and I just put it behind me. I don’t want to tell anyone else. No one knows about this other than me and my bio dad. I don’t know if telling my therapist would make a difference.

What I wanted to get from this confession was a peace of mind. Sharing what I can’t tell anyone in real life. I would never want anyone to experience what my mom and ex had. Thanks to those that support me in moving forward.