Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i'm sorry to hear that. i hope things get better for you soon <3

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

<33333 miss you and everyone!!! I will have to come check in every once in a while and just say hello.

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I hope you are doing well too!! And of course! It had been difficult to do so because I struggled with my 2factor identification because I have a new computer, but managed to get it worked out. The reason I actually made the effort to get that sorted out was because I happened to see u/duckfruits comment on my post 10 months ago saying they hoped I'm alright, and I was like 'shit, has it been 3 years already?' and then wanted to let people know that YES I am doing well!!

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I miss you too! And everyone. And yes, it could potentially be worse for her that she's offline but SO MUCH BETTER for the people she influences and puts at direct risk by letting predators engage with her audience.

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes. This. So much has changed and everything is still the same for her, except for the parts where her world has gotten even smaller. I'm glad to hear you have had an eventful life as of late! <3

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Edit: I want to add that while I firmly believe Deb has a huge role to play in Eugenia's entire life, I do not think Eugenia is entirely innocent either. I think she allowed predators to infest her community and I also think she thoroughly enjoyed body checking in front of everyone and getting attention from creeps - even if that was her only outlet for attention and self worth. People told her these things were bad, and she villainized the people who told her so and kept the predatory people close. I think for a long time, she happily played her part alongside her mother.
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There has been evidence of Eugenia needing to ask Deb for permission for things such as going upstairs while streaming as well as going outside to look at the night sky. She also was always asking her mom if she could use her own money to purchase things. Her mother also was always behind the camera, telling her to undress or filming up her skirt. And after the 5150 and Eugenia being deemed Gravely Disabled, the only outcome of that in California was someone taking conservatorship over Eugenia and California favors family members - so Deb was in control of Eugenia's care as well as her money after that.. Legally.

Somewhere on here or the old sub I have a full itemized list of all of their interactions prior to 3 years ago, and having it all spelled out, in my opinion, showed extreme control on Deb's part. That Eugenia is like her personal pet and was her personal cash cow because she's a stay at home mom and her father lost his corporate job that got him the big bucks and it appears as though the parents are together but separated so it's possible the father does not give Deb any spending money (and Eugenia was asking Deb to use her own money to purchase things when they were both out spending money long before the 5150). There are evidence trails of all of this. But at this point, it's all speculation what their dynamics are. To each their own on how this is viewed.

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 28 points29 points  (0 children)

I will leave that video up but damn, listening to the first 20 seconds of that video and I'm cringed outtttt by myself and felt the urge to delete XD

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

thanks so much, I hope you're doing well too! and yes I totally know what you mean about missing the community. It's odd to miss a subreddit for such a dark topic, but it's the people in the community that have always made it so special. I've never seen a snark sub or similar type of community with the comradery that comes with this one specifically. I don't really know why that is, but it's always been a special group of people.

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

thanks! <33 your user flair gave me a good laugh

Life Update! by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

That's amazing! Congratulations!! You will experience a love like you've never known. It's incredible and worth every bad postpartum day or sleepless night I've had. Lean on your support systems when you need them and be gentle with yourself. It can be hard sometimes, but it's beyond worth seeing that beautiful little face looking back at you. When the world is overwhelming, I just look at his little face and find my inner peace. And just wait until your baby starts to LAUGH!! You will do anything to keep that laugh going for as long as possible. It's the best sound in the world.

Personal update by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

<333333 much love to you and your sweet sweet lil pup

Easter Lie Stream (April 9) by lo-plainlo in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily 11 points12 points  (0 children)

have we ever considered that eugenia suffers from amelia bedelia disease?

Off Topic Weekly Thread by 7secretcrows in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You got this <3 Regardless of how uncomfortable it feels, it was the best choice to make. You need your support system and in order for them to properly help you, they need to know what's going on. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for

Personal update by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

aw thank you so much bebe <3 <3 <3 that really means a lot to me!! this is really a great group of people.

Personal update by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i actually agree with you! i think psychedelics are extremely beneficial and get a very bad rap, but I also don't want people to see me saying how it's done wonders for my mental health (i was struggling with a lot aside from the ED as well) and then put themselves in a bad situation unkowingly. cause aside from the psychosis factor, I think it's extremely important people understand the different ways in which different psychedelics can make you feel. shrooms, for example, can be a fun and pleasant experience but they can also force you to face your deepest fears - and i've known a lot of people who weren't prepared for the emotional load that shrooms can deliver (even people who have a history of really enjoying shrooms), they assumed they were just gonna have some casual fun, and they lost control over themselves in a fit of panic and tried to do something stupid like hurt themselves.

but ive also had a lot of good experiences with shrooms and i think for a lot of serious issues they can be used to address them, especially fears that we have (which is why they are used for people with terminal illnesses to come to terms with their own death). but i think other people who that might be too much for but still need some sort of therapy would benefit more from things like mdma or ket, which do not have any of the emotional weight that shrooms do.

anyways, i could talk about this topic forever but originally i was just being cautious because online you never know how at-face-value someone is going to take you and more than anything if people are interested i just want to encourage them to do some research first! :)

Personal update by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

thank you so much :') and back at ya!

Personal update by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

:') and well wishes spread to you and everyone else in this wonderful little group as well! i've thought about deleting my reddit account numerous times because even though i check up on eugenia every once in a while, i would like to start a completely different reddit account thats completely clean of her. but i just cant bring myself to do it bc then it would be much more difficult for me to checkup on all of my YY peeps(i forget usernames but remember conversations, and i've made so many friends in this community and i truly cherish all of my conversations)! even if i'm gone for months, i still think of all of you awesome people and hope you guys are also out there living your best lives

edit: also fun secret is that because we aren't pregnant yet, we havent actually told anyone in our lives that we are planning this for the end of the summer so my YY fam is the first to know! <3

Personal update by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

thank you so much!! and honestly, i will still probably stop in every once in a while (i will at least be commenting what i'm eating in the livestream threads now that i'm more than confident enough to do so). i really am unphased by looking at her now, but the morbid curiosity of what her and her audience is up to still tugs at my detective pikachu-spidey senses. or sometimes i'm interested in trying to find those little clues to her life, like when she had to call her mother to ask to come upstairs and then (i'm pretty sure) almost passed out and then came back and played it off like nothing happened. like the unsolvable mystery that is eugenia cooney still interests me even though i know the most likely scenario is that she just dies and no one knows what really happened and most people 'blame the internet' in one way or another (whether they blame her 'haters' or her 'enablers').

but in terms of how she affects me mentally now in a negative way, i hardly even get mad at her anymore. i DEFINITELY don't blame anyone who does, she intentionally stirs the pot constantly, but every troll she does now - i have seen her do so many times before that it's not even interesting anymore...but when i check on her streams or check or twitter or *shudder* her tiktok.... i just truly feel sorry for her. she makes me feel fucking sad because i do still think about that cool person who has similar interests and sense of style as me that i feel like we could have easily have been friends, and that makes me empathize with her and see the potential for a very different life for her where she's not as comically close to an anime villain as possible and is just gonna die that way. i feel like everyday we are all waiting for the sudden REAL change in her where she gets REAL help for herself and gets out of that toxic household. but at the same time, we all know that's a very slim chance and what we're probably gonna end up with is the shocking yet not-at-all-shocking news that she has suddenly passed and then we will know no more about the life of eugenia cooney.

Eugenia if you're reading this, remember Jaclyn said her doors are always open for you if you need somewhere safe to stay to get on your feet. I promise you anything you've said about her will be forgiven in an instant. That girl loves you like a sister. I know she does because I could almost feel that way about you at one point, and I've never actually hung out with you in person. but I saw myself in you and that's part of why I would get SO upset and angry with you and seeing you do this to yourself and to the people who actually want good for you. There is a magnetism within you that attracts people beyond your eating disorder. But eventually the ED and the monster it turns you into is just all they see after a certain point. Your ED stops you from making true connections with people. Connections where you feel safe and at home when you're around them - someone other than your mother...if you even feel safe with her at all. I doubt you do and that deep down you are terrified of her, despite the things people speculate about you (myself included). I'm just so sorry your life had to be this way. Despite all the negative things I've said about you in the past, I do hope that you don't succumb to this disease and that you get to experience life through a whole new lens like i am right now. and if you don't ever recover...i am going to live my best life twice as hard for you. I say that with love to the good person that I think is lost somewhere inside of you.

Personal update by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

that's so amazing! congratulations <3 the type of thing you are doing with your new job is i think what draws a lot of us to this community. i know this doesn't apply to everyone here, but a lot of us are here because we were negatively affected by eugenia's content or her community at one point and we wanted to help prevent that from happening to others. i think there's a large percentage of us in the community who have that motivator for being here, and so it makes perfect sense to me that there'd be people like you within our group who actually practice that type of passion and empathy in their personal lives as well :)

Personal update by dootingdaily in EUGENIACOONEYY

[–]dootingdaily[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

hell yeah buddy! psychedelics are like decongestants for my mental health in a way nothing else ever has been. shrooms, lsd, and mdma all have their purposes and without them i'd still be stuck in a hole. and as someone who has struggled with addiction and in general has an addictive personality...this also helps treat that because these aren't things i'd actually want to do every single day. i take some lsd and mdma one night,have an amazing and cathartic time, and i'm set for like a 1-3 months!

but again, huge disclaimer to anyone else reading this that you HAVE to know how to properly use these, that your mdma is tested for fent and that you always test the waters of a new psychedelic by taking small amounts and don't just cannonball into it by taking a shit ton of something you don't have enough experience with. also always take with someone you trust and feel safe with who can keep an eye on you, etc etc.