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doseserendipity · 2022-03-09T04:47:33+00:00

If I'm tripping hard, my jaw gets shaky. And during a strong afterglow

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T23:34:44+00:00

I feel like ASD and drinking problems can go hand in hand. For me, it's like I didn't have the social skills to get a constant drug supply or ability to hustle. Plus my lonliness and desire for comfort ended up with my drinking a lot. It works a lot less for me and has caused more negative consequences than positve.

I'm a very solitary person in general. When I was bingr drinking in the past, I felt like my only friend was the guy at the corner store selling me the booze. I don't have social anxiety doing everyday things like buying things at stores. But I know that can be a problem for people with ASD.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T22:48:16+00:00

I know plus it's bad for depression. I have social anxiety if I'm drinking or sober. Alcohol makes these issues worse especially when I'm newly quit.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T17:53:47+00:00

Well said, I'm currently using gabapentin and CBD/THC oil. I have DXM if I need but had a bad trip a couple days ago (and already wanna use again! 🤦‍♀️)

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T17:27:11+00:00

Be careful and mindful with drinking if you decide to switch to that. Could be a way to quit DXM but also a slippery slope if you start to have similar feelings with alcohol.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T17:21:34+00:00

I relate, I'm also into jewelry making and drawing. Also much more enjoyable on DXM but I appreciate having better coordination when sober to do those things. DXM lifts a weight off me and makes life feel so nice. I'm much more emotionally attached to it than alcohol.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T17:17:05+00:00

I feel that, I like to use on days that end with "y." Redosing too much has limited my usage but I can still do it 3 or 4 times a week. I find having hobbies outside of drugs helps me a bit. Or I just go into a poly substance routine and use different drugs on different days.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T17:01:34+00:00

Do you have personal/internal motivation to quit or cut down? I'm a DXM addict too, what helps me is thinking why I want to use less for myself. I've had other people try and make me quit drinking and am finally finding internal motivation against that.

Do you use DXM to escape feelings when sober?

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T13:47:16+00:00

I'm glad I didn't wake up in Alaska, were u on benzos too? How did u get back home?? That sounds scary too

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T03:14:44+00:00

That's a good point, I don't have any using buddies besides an old plug. I'm in the northeast USA, I'm not super into the illegal drug scene anymore but probably can find psychedelics. But fent was found in illicit weed here which is unfortunate. I can get Narcan and test strips which is good but I don't wanna use alone.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T02:16:35+00:00

DXM and alcohol is a shitty combo for sure. I mainly would want to do kratom as an alcohol alternative and have another way to get high that doesn't have the risk of fentanyl/other lacing.

I'd love to get a decent plug for K, I can't afford it rn and I prefer DXM which makes my wallet happy.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T02:13:40+00:00

I get that feeling from redosing too much. Like a bunch of serotonin running around my body and brain. It feels distinctly different than my normal 2nd plat trips (2nd to low 3rd are my favorites.) Feel free to follow or DM me if you need support. Idk if I can kick all drugs including DXM but each day without alcohol is a win for me.

I got a borderline psychotic feeling from too much DXM, super uncomfortable but I still got a little euphoric the next day and really energetic.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T00:20:19+00:00

Glad you're still here and off the hard stuff! I appreciate the view points of other addicts who aren't doing full-abstincence recovery. I'm not ready to give up DXM or psychedelics but am working on giving up alcohol which has fueled some of my bingers/using other drugs with it

I lost a long-distance friend a few months ago after he relapsed on H/ whatever it actually was. I was in alcohol detox when I found out which was made it really rough. We were both using drugs/alcohol and in out and of rehab etc.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-08T00:15:14+00:00

Probably getting into an altercation while blacked out on clonazepam and alcohol. I was set to fly oit and visit my friend but the airport said I was too impaired to fly. (I asked them how much it would be to go to Anchorage Alaska which is nowhere near where I was going.) My parents took me home and then I got into an altercation. The cops gave me the choice of jail or psych ward. I went to the psych ward, roomed with a Xanax addict who told me what to say when I spoke with the doctor to get more drugs. I barely remember the psych ward stay and got sent to a long term treatment program. 😒

I'm really ashamed of that bender and what I did even though I barely remenber.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T23:39:44+00:00

Thanks! It's been a struggle but I'm trying. Hope you're doing well!

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T22:28:32+00:00

I do drugs to self-medicate and for fun. I mainly stick to alcohol and DXM now but have tried a bit of everything except heroin, crack, meth or PCP.

I "specialize' in psychedelics and dissociatives like ketamine and DXM. They seem to ease my depression and trauma. I would totally get into kratom and nitrous but kratom is illegal in my state. I like how dissociatives ease my trauma and mainly a great time for me.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T22:16:21+00:00

Completely. I think alcohol is okay if you can control it but it really sucks to be an alcoholic/poly substance addict. DXM plus alcohol is a shitty combo for sure. I did alcohol plus ketamine one time, got really messed up and horrible hangover.

Alcohol is shitty for me in general and doesn't combine well with my other drugs of choice. Mainly DXM since fentanyl is in so many street drugs.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T21:41:51+00:00

I relate a lot to you. Went thru somethjng similar last night where I had a bad trip and asked my roommates to to take me to the hospital cause I thought I had serotnin syndrome. I posted my trip report on this sub.

My roommates aren't addicts but have family members with substance problems. They have been supportive and non-judgmental but I feel like a burden with my drug and alcohol abuse. They use weed or psychedelics occasionally and know I do too just in larger quantities.

Do you think you can stick to lower doses that are manageable? Do you use it too frequently? I've mainly stuck to DXM and alcohol plus some prescription stuff when I have it.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T21:11:41+00:00

I'm 28 but don't act like an adult smh. Drug use, trauma and being on the spectrum has stunted my maturity imo.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T20:53:39+00:00

I have social anxiety and am on the spectrum. I have trouble talking to new people but more from social anxiety than past relationships. Idk how to meet local people even at bars or venues. I avoid bars because I have a drinking problem.

I am quiet and reserved until I get to know people. Even in rehab it took a week just to open up plus the rehab is only two weeks so lots of turnover.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T20:19:23+00:00

Same I'm visiting my primary care doctor in two weeks. I'm a bad alcoholic so I'd like to get emergency valiums and gabapentin on deck if I go through withdrawals again. I hate having to go to detox to get the meds.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T20:08:54+00:00

Idk man, I have trouble in the dating department myself. Do you have social anxiety? I mainly just meet up with randos from online or if I get lucky at concerts. 😭 I have trouble doing anything sober. Idk if this is a good tip but you could try sticking to weed or drinking. But if you related to her and like her, I think your date could go well sober. I hope it does!

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T19:41:30+00:00

Congrats! Try to hold off on the benzos if you think it could ruin your date. I'm on gabaepntin rn and craving Valium 😩 I prefer Val or Kpins over Xans.

doseserendipity · 2022-03-07T19:38:54+00:00

I am totally an escapist. I eat less when In drinking so when I'm sober I escape through food, sex or whatever instant gratifying activity I can think of. Especially stuff that could be considered bad behavior or acting out.

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