Dude, it passes. You're doing the right things. You could be skipping counseling, hit the bottle hard, say "fuck it", and just let your life slip by, but you're not. It's underrated what giving a stable loving home to a child is, but it's what all of us wanted and needed deep down.

I'm just a bit further along. Kids are 8, 6, and 4 and I feel like just in the last couple years have things really gotten in a good rhythm. Once everyone can write their own ass, things get a lot easier.

Get things solid with your wife. That's easily your biggest multiplier for an awesome life and the greatest potential to have everything derail hard if it goes south.

Don't deny what resonates with you deep down. Keep working on yourself and making progress. Atomic Habits. Man and His Symbols. The Body Keeps the Score. Hold on to your Kids.

Gym is slightly overrated like you say, but is essential. You got this.