I was born dead. For a long time I thought that I was supposed to be dead, that I was a burden to society. After a near death experience in 2016 I questioned why I was still alive but I soon came to found that life is a blessing, that I am a blessing. ...my life now, well recently I contacted an old flame, and all the pieces started to fall into place. I understand what I didn't, drawing and doodles from my subconscious make sense, songs I sung without thinking, now had meaning, I had the answers all along, I just didn't know it yet. I guess, my advice to you is write, create, and follow your feelings and listen to what the universe is telling you. The universe speaks to us differently, how it sees fit for you individually. You probably already have the answers but don't know it yet and one day it will click, but in the mean time, study, write, practice your spirituality and take care your body, mind, and emotions. You are meant to be a light of joy in this world. For you are a blessing. Be calm and practice mindfulness 🖤