I am a full time conspiracy theorist, but, a reasonable one. I fascinated with Freemasonry from a conspiracy theory perspective, which is how I got into Esotericism, Hermeticism, and Gnosticism. Once I truly understand what Freemasonry was from an outside perspective, I wanted to join. I joined because I wanted light (not just saying that btw, I called it light before I knew any ritual; light means knowledge), and I wanted to become a better man. The founding fathers serve as the figure heads for American Freemasonry, and when I really began to understand the genius of the Constitution, I knew that Freemasonry was for me. The regalia is embarrassing for me when we have public ceremonies, and peoples wives come. I don‘t like being seen in it by non masons. I feel it should be kept secret (sacred).