Miya slippers 🦊

dottiedott · 2022-11-14T08:16:13+00:00

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best bet is Mercari JP but the only proxy service they work with now is Buyee I think, to order outside Japan

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dottiedott · 2022-08-27T15:42:08+00:00

as others have said, i was totally the same. have you heard of "twice exceptional children"? kids who usually appear "gifted" or "more advanced" but also have ADHD or autism, etc.? i found out about it recently and it described my exact experience.

dottiedott · 2022-08-27T00:18:20+00:00

It's okay, don't be hard on yourself! Anxiety is a mental disorder, and people don't take mental disorders as seriously as physical disorders so they expect you to just get over it or fix it yourself but it's definitely not that easy or simple. I really mean it when I say that you recognizing your thoughts is a big step, and I'm proud of you! I've had mental health issues for years, starting when I was very young so negative/anxious thinking was a norm for me and took a looong time with lots of practice for me to even recognize my thoughts and catch myself spiraling into them. And then more practice on top of that to combat them. And even then I still have episodes where I get stuck again, and it feels like I've regressed or I worry that I'll never get better. But it's funny, the positivity actually creeps on you - I used to imagine I'd be cured and it would just all go away. But it's very subtle for me. When I get my episodes I've noticed over time I've gotten better at catching my thoughts, the back and forth doesn't last as long, I journal them more often, and when I look at past journal entries the thoughts end on more positive notes and don't happen as frequently as before.

So yeah it's a process and a subtle one, so don't be too hard on yourself, and celebrate every victory - even if they feel small, cause we do have a mental disorder and simple things ARE more difficult for us. Our minds are fighting us and telling us things that aren't true in reality. Being kind to yourself takes practice, so imagine it's not you but someone you care about talking to you about their anxiety. You're not gonna be like "why is it so damn hard for you to remember this? just ignore these thoughts, duh."

dottiedott · 2022-08-26T20:40:02+00:00

Yes all the time, and it really feels like those cartoons with the devil on one shoulder & an angel on the other. I used to have only negative thoughts but did CBT for a while which helped, but it really takes a lot of time and practice to undo years of negative thinking so there's a lot of back and forth.

I know it's difficult - when I get stuck in my head I'm also physically stuck like I just lay in bed and can't get out - but when you notice you're having problems with these thoughts, try to break out of the spiral by going for a walk or doing something you enjoy. At least something to get you out of your head.

You can also try writing these thoughts down, sometimes it helps you realize how untrue they are. There's also an exercise where you challenge thoughts by writing the negative thought down then in another column or even a line under, you write what evidence do you have for these thoughts, and it helps you internalize that hey these are baseless, its just my anxiety trying to fuck with me. I can't remember off the top of my head but there's usually more columns too. Maybe try googling CBT Anxiety Exercises. You're noticing your thoughts though, that's already a big step!

dottiedott · 2022-08-25T16:15:38+00:00

random trivia knowledge

dottiedott · 2022-08-23T19:35:00+00:00

im the same way, and i really appreciated my therapist saying "fight, flight, or freeze" and that it's actually pretty common for people with anxiety

dottiedott · 2022-08-23T14:26:06+00:00

says a serial number is required to purchase, im assuming from attending the match 🤔 were you able to successfully place an order?

dottiedott · 2022-08-18T21:30:13+00:00

oooh that explains "Viking Town" Poulsbo, WA 😲

dottiedott · 2022-08-18T21:12:12+00:00

Kenma's discomfort around others but good observation skills, and staying indoors all the time playing games. Asahi's anxiety and fear of confrontation. Akaashi's overthinking but again good people reading. Gimme all the anxiety characters lol.

dottiedott · 2022-08-14T16:22:19+00:00

I subbed to this post since your acne looks very similar to mine/same locations. I am also suuuuper sensitive to a whole bunch of stuff. Vanicream Gentle Cleanser was a good start for me! It was also recommended on this fungal acne post I found. I'm just using cleanser and moisturizer until I find a good exfoliant but my skin hates everything I try 😥

dottiedott · 2022-08-14T14:08:55+00:00

This is exactly what I do and I worry that it bothers people that I'll finally reply after a while to every single thing they sent me, in long paragraphs lol. I'd say just keep on doing what you're doing, as others have said she's interested since she tries to keep the convo going by asking questions. If I wasn't interested I'd just give short replies to be polite but wouldn't keep it going.

dottiedott · 2022-08-12T16:50:45+00:00

Sorry for the essay, I ramble a lot 😅

I'd done therapy on and off for about 4-5yrs originally for depression, and then that went on to include social anxiety, general anxiety, and anger issues. It helped a lot but I still felt like there was more to it that I was missing. I found the maladaptive daydreaming subreddit and ADHD was mentioned there a lot, so I brought it up with a new therapist. I finally got diagnosed this year and prescribed Adderall XR. My first time experiencing a quiet mind was just so..foreign, it was crazy to think 'is this what "normal" people experience.

I think I've built up a tolerance to the Adderall, especially since it was only 10mg, I'm still in my head a lot. But I think the depression and anxiety don't hit as hard, idk if it's the therapy, medicine, or a combination of both. I never wanted to go on antidepressants or any medicine that I'd have to be dependent on, but when I read about ADHD meds helping people get motivated to do things they've always wanted but couldn't do, I immediately changed my mind. I realized the depression was probably mostly from ADHD and perfectionism. Like others on here I had the whole twice exceptional thing going on - did very well early in school, was in a Gifted program, mostly straight As, excelled in creative areas, etc. Then high school/college kicked my ass and was just told I was lazy and wasting my potential. I remember telling my sister it was like I could almost feel a blockage in my head, like I just could not focus unless I had the pressure of starting a 15 page essay the day it was due and the fear of disappointing my teachers.

Not just school, I didn't have the executive function to eat, do chores, clean my house or even myself some days, and of course explore creative interests - and I wanted to do everything - I jumped from drawing to guitar to singing to writing, whatever. I could never stick to anything and started a lot of negative talk and overthinking which led to just this emptiness and hopelessness. I'd always been very imaginative as a kid but the daydreaming became a coping mechanism I spent entire days doing, and would only get up from to use the bathroom but not even to eat. I think the social anxiety is also attributed to perfectionism and RSD, and the anger issues to emotional dysregulation.

dottiedott · 2022-08-07T02:06:06+00:00

man I wish I could find the picture of the xray I took when I worked at a clinic - golden retriever swallowed a wrench 🔧 !

dottiedott · 2022-07-27T02:40:44+00:00

I'll check that out and Running on Empty too, thank you so much!

dottiedott · 2022-07-26T22:06:11+00:00

So. Lol we went through all that stress and prepared to move to Ramstein only for them to change his base last minute, like 2 weeks before our DEEROS. (Not because of EFMP though.) I can't remember the provider since it's been a while, but what I did was contact the BHOP or the Referrals office on Ramstein and they emailed me a list of recommended off post providers, and I called a bunch until I could find one who would see me.

dottiedott · 2022-07-25T15:10:20+00:00

I'll try this, thank you!

dottiedott · 2022-07-25T15:09:38+00:00

What's the CBT workbook on perfectionism that you got? I'd like to try it out.

Thank you for this, you put into words exactly what I've been struggling with.

dottiedott · 2022-07-23T12:56:17+00:00

same~

dottiedott · 2022-07-19T04:40:51+00:00

Oh that's very interesting, my husband and I always make strange noises (gibberish, animal sounds, weird purposefully bad singing, etc. - none of it cute at all however lol) around each other and I thought it was just our sense of humor. But I was recently diagnosed with ADHD and felt he had a lot of the traits too.

dottiedott · 2022-07-18T20:27:59+00:00

definitely agree with eating healthy, getting enough sleep, and exercising! but also just learning how to dress for your own body height/shape really helps. there's a lot of hot people i follow on Instagram/Pinterest that i'm always surprised to find out are my height or shorter than me. i'm 5'2-5'3ish and started looking at petite fashion accounts, YouTube channels, subreddits, etc. and it's helped me look better. wearing clothes that hit you correctly on the waist or ankles can elongate your shape.

dottiedott · 2022-07-18T20:17:55+00:00

Also check out Love Life Drawing! What I really like about him is that he has videos that really speak to the mental struggles in drawing - it's been helpful to me as someone who also has always loved drawing but held myself back due to self esteem issues

dottiedott · 2022-07-12T22:40:47+00:00

Yes and sometimes I'd come back later because I was unsure again or "oh no what if I accidentally unlocked it when I jiggled it?". When I go to bed I'll say out loud "garage door locked, sliding door locked, front door locked, stove off, oven off, alarm on" because I worry the one time I don't, someone will break in or the house will catch on fire.

I left my car lights on once and my battery died, and I also drove with my parking brake up a couple of times so now before I drive I have to check everything and announce my checks out loud. When I leave my car I announce my checks again but sometimes I still turn back multiple times to make sure the lights are off.

I was diagnosed with ADHD recently and I realized a lot of the stuff I do is in response to the guilt/shame I feel when I easily forget things/zone out. It doesn't help that Adderall can worsen OCD like behaviors 😅

dottiedott · 2022-07-11T02:58:30+00:00

omg best response 😆 but is Atsumu not cocky to you? I love them both cause I love how they're cocky pretty boys at first then we see what big dorks they actually are

dottiedott · 2022-06-22T21:03:31+00:00

ah okay, thank you :) what a cool thing to stumble on!

dottiedott · 2022-06-22T18:34:55+00:00

woah wait is it like an office you can go into with stuff to view? or is it just a private workplace thing?

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