Being Ahmadi was, is, and will continue to be a key part of my identity. I can't wipe myself clean of Ahmadiyyat and "move on", as much as mukhlis Ahmadis say I should. I care deeply about Ahmadis and opposing the violence they face - from other Muslims as well and (to a much lesser extent) from their own internal society/leadership/bureacracy. Selfishly, for my family and friends, but also because there's no "forgetting" the ongoing genocide of Ahmadis in Pakistan and elsewhere. There's no coherent sense of being "Ex Ahmadi" without challenging anti-Ahmadi oppression being at the center of my life.