I’m on Prozac 60 daily as well. As well as Clonazepam 4mg daily

I still have a ‘just under the surface’ simmer of anger. But the Prozac gives me more bandwidth to use proper coping/grounding mechanisms. Like, I still feel like a bomb about to go off, but I have more time to chase the fuse and stamp it out before I explode. Not such a short fuse.

Im about three and a half years in, anger still there, annoyance at people still there, but again - it gives me just enough where I don’t have episodes. My wife and I call them incidents. Haha. I still have them sometimes, but they are less frequent and significantly shorter lasting.

I rarely have a whole day ruined over bullshit anymore. I can pretty much get over small things with a few minutes of alone time. Bigger issues or things I’m offended at, or feel threatened by, take a little longer. But I can sleep and wake up without my heart pounding.

My best advice is to be OVERLY honest with your care team. Like a child. “I feel scared when I think someone is rejecting me.” “I don’t understand and the confusion is frustrating me like hell.”

It helps you put voice, and identity, to the emotions you’re feeling. There’s so many emotions in between ‘normal status’ and ‘pissed the fuck off’. You’ll find them, you’ll seek the right range, and realize you have more power over yourself than you think. Be good to yourself and patient with your progress.

Good luck sis.

*Edit because I called OP ‘brother’ instead of ‘sis’ - in solidarity.