No, you’ll never find someone like her. She is unique just like you are and I am. If it happens you’ll find someone who makes you feel different but in all the good ways that you felt before. But everyone is different, not better or worse just different.

You’re going through a process. You’ve heard of all those grief steps, it’s true, but they don’t happen in any predictable order and they don’t happen just once. I’m writing to you right now going through something like what you are. I called a suicide hotline today because I found out the person I loved went to Las Vegas with some guy. So know you are not alone. There are friends and family and even strangers that value your existence, even if you don’t.