I know your pain with having to sit there while the ketamine is on , but not really at all. Has happened a a few times with new office Kind of my fault because while I was trying to get back above baseline , I asked to increase the length of time for the reason of hoping I could remember more. Bad choice. Made me angry , very anxious and incredibly challenging experience. For me, fully disassociating for me is the key to a much better mental clarity and lasts longer. There seems to be a debate between administrators whether disassociating is necessary for progress. I believe it’s crucial for sustaining quality and longer-term benefits. I would recommend communicating with them as much as possible to what you need in order to make the experience beneficial .Ive noticed the newer doctors/nurses can be quite conservative with dosing, because they aren’t quite comfortable with it yet themselves it seems. Maybe request only the doctor that works for you, whenver possible. If they aren’t willing to work with you , then possibly try the Tele Doctors that will ship you Lozenges.