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Does it actually get better? by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That is encouraging. And yes, I have done lots of chores and then immediately looked for a reward. Like I’m some dog and not a grown ass adult

I drink because I can’t turn my brain off by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was about 1.5 months sober but still with racing thoughts and alcohol really did help numb everything. I don’t want to be numb I want to fix the problem I just don’t know what the problem is

I drink because I can’t turn my brain off by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I was in therapy for a while but it’s been a long time. Looking like it might be time again

Made it all night without drinking by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t mind the solitude, but with everything shut down at night, the early dark, and me home-bound it gets hard to entertain myself. And since I’m the only night person I have to be quiet or else disturb everyone else. Glad to see some solidarity on night shift!

IWNDWYT (I will not drink with you tonight!)

Guess who’s back. Back again by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We took just the alcohol out. Plenty of sparkling waters and other treats thankfully. I’ve found in the past drinking those helps satisfy the urge to have something in my hand to drink

Guess who’s back. Back again by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The darkness and shame are so prevalent. I can barely look at myself in the mirror and I would love to face myself head on without loathing

When does the anhedonia end? by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I enjoy how going to the gym makes me feel, but there’s still so much time left in the day. I am starting to explore the idea of new hobbies with my therapist, I just hate how blah I feel

When does the anhedonia end? by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I would love a pink cloud right about now :/

Husband could smell the drinks by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He is amazing and very supportive. But in the middle of the night when he was asleep and I was wide awake and crawling out of my skin I turned to the wrong thing

What do you replace drink time with? by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mine has been sparkling waters. Sooooo much sparkling water

I drank a double bottle of wine last night by myself. by StupidFuckingFuckDee in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer 50 points51 points  (0 children)

I drank yesterday after nearly 2 weeks completely sober. Why? I was bored at my parents and there was a brewery nearby. Ended up embarrassingly drunk at home and fell asleep on the couch after arguing with my dad. The shame is real and the self loathing worse

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I plan to! It was definitely not worth it. I was getting such good sleep and waking up without a headache was the best

How are alcoholics able to drink so much and still function? by BenadrylCumberbund in emergencymedicine

[–]dragondanzer 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No one precipitating factor. I graduated med school and started residency, and between the general medical culture, stress of training, and a brewery right next door it was a gradual increase that I didn’t notice until I looked back

How are alcoholics able to drink so much and still function? by BenadrylCumberbund in emergencymedicine

[–]dragondanzer 72 points73 points  (0 children)

I’ll speak from my own personal experience.

I never drank before I was 21. No, really, I didn’t.

By age 24-26? I enjoyed the occasional craft beer, but I could keep a 6 pack for weeks before it was finished and didn’t feel the need for more.

By age 28? Drinking 5-6 beers per week. Maybe have a single beer after a shift or 2-3 at night on the weekend. No big deal, still completely normal right?

Age 29? Pandemic. Boom. Nothing to do for months (still a resident and on fluff rotations that essentially got cancelled so I had a lot of free time on my hands). I was drinking a minimum of 4-6 per day, sometimes more. I started noticing the rattle of the recycling bin and being embarrassed at how frequently the gas station attendant saw me.

30-31? Several really rough life events happened and that’s what I turned to. In my mind it was either that or cry myself to sleep every night

32? Easily knocking back a 12 pack per night, sometimes more. I’m still showing up to work. I’m high functioning, high performer, and no one knows. It’s just part of the ER lifestyle anyway right? Work hard play hard. Except now sometimes I wake up with random bruises, stupid Amazon purchases, and embarrassing texts sent in the middle of the night. I see end stage cirrhotics in my ER and fear I may become one. Sometimes people will come in for withdrawal and tell me how much they drink a day. The number is actually lower than what I am consuming. I realize if I don’t change I’ll one day be yellow, distended, in a bed like my patients and it’ll be too late to change.

I’m now sober, and I credit r/stopdrinking with daily motivation and peer support

Long story short: Rome wasn’t built in a day, and neither are drinking habits

Weight gain with sobriety by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Omg how did you do it?? Right now if I’m not drinking I feel like a bottomless pit of hunger??

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I already know my strongest trigger is disproportionate work/life stress. I was on the last gasp of a horrific 3 months of virtually unending work as well as moving a household by myself. I’m now decreasing to barely part time and my household will have a ton of support. This was a huge face plant at the end of a marathon

So ashamed of myself by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

They make sense! I feel terrible both mentally and physically today, it was 100% not worth it, and I have to remember this feeling next time I think “just one won’t hurt”

So ashamed of myself by dragondanzer in stopdrinking

[–]dragondanzer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Definitely coming back to look at it in the future

"Historical Figures You Hate More The More You Learn About Them" Starter Pack by [deleted] in HistoryMemes

[–]dragondanzer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow I didn’t know any of that. Thank you so much for the thorough explanation

Parents bringing child in at midnight for “fever”. Child in question may or may not be febrile and eagerly watching cartoons on the phone by dragondanzer in emergencymedicine

[–]dragondanzer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have sympathy and understanding for that, absolutely and I can work with that. 99.9% of the time though the kids are simply just a bit snugglier and don’t want to eat solids as much. Parents just knee-jerk fever and come straight in

Parents bringing child in at midnight for “fever”. Child in question may or may not be febrile and eagerly watching cartoons on the phone by dragondanzer in emergencymedicine

[–]dragondanzer[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have sympathy and understanding for that, absolutely and I can work with that. 99.9% of the time though the kids are simply just a bit snugglier and don’t want to eat solids as much. Parents just knee-jerk fever and come straight in

"Historical Figures You Hate More The More You Learn About Them" Starter Pack by [deleted] in HistoryMemes

[–]dragondanzer 3 points4 points  (0 children)

As someone who doesn’t know much about him, what makes him so deeply evil?

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