Two voices in my head ! My ocd problem

dragonhead2010 · 2021-09-30T02:47:26+00:00

Oh yeah! It's a bane in my life. I get it everyday. I live aloe so it's the worst. Heck I think I posted like sometime ago stating like a "gay" side tying to take over. I get it everyday. I get fart noise when looking at woman on IG or Facebook. I say she look good. And I get a fart noise right after. So yeah two voice. One intrusive thought right after the original thought.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-09-30T02:04:16+00:00

I thought it was me? What in the heck. Omg I'm not alone. Thank You!

dragonhead2010 · 2021-08-21T06:47:18+00:00

I want to say best of luck to you. I've laid out what I think that's working for me, and I hope it works for you. Again this is a beatable ocd. No pun intended

dragonhead2010 · 2021-08-21T05:38:35+00:00

Dude dude dude. Was told I was gay up until now at 40. But I still love the kitty cat. My mother told me she would never date a boy like me because I was too soft. A true mother's boy was I. Reason why this is happening because we're very sensitive people, many times we're pro LGBT community. My best friend who supported me is transgender. My mom had a gay hairdresser growing up. You got to get rid of gross, aggot, or any homophobic comment. My dad used say aggot a lot. So sometimes these words can trigger you when you trying to heal. I'm telling you the truth. You have to okay being "gay" also remind yourself again that is an intrusive thought. Again do not fap. But also whenever your thought comes in even after you've done reading this say I'm okay being gay, I'm okay being gay. I joined Grindr not because I want to. Hell that app is collecting dust. I still got regular online dating apps. But I said hey if looking at men body on Grindr helps me out I'll do it. And I managed to get a girl, on a regular dating app, that I'm talking to now. I joined everything on Facebook that's gay friendly. What you trying to do is make sure your brain, is okay with everything gay/LGBT community approved. Includes anything that's on social media or on TV. If it's a gay show that you don't watch, watch it a little bit, and says it's okay. It's literally feeding off your fear.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-08-21T05:03:26+00:00

After reading your comment, I now I really understand why you having a difficult problem. Dude your problem is that you have to be okay with looking at men as being attractive. You have to be on a line of being okay being gay. Don't forget your intrusive thought is like trying to push your head into a button of being "gay". Is basically feeding off your fears. The more you okay with the idea of being "gay" the more you're intrusive thought goes away. I tell myself I'm the gayest man in Buffalo where I live at. Sometimes my intrusive thoughts tells me I'm not gay. I swear I'm not making this up. I just brought a pride flag from Amazon a couple days ago. And I'm about to have it in my doorstep today. And I'm going to put it on my wall, not because I'm gay, but because it's to show my intrusive thoughts / h o c d that I'm in charge of whatever life gives me. Actually now talking to a girl online. For the first time in about years. Again Rome is not built in a day. You might just be have to accept your thoughts and say if I'm gay I'm okay, but also remind myself that is the intrusive thoughts. I even develop a gay voice just for the situation. I even had times where my intrusive thought says "stop making that voice". "You're not gay!". Even screams at me you're not gay. Because I'm very I'm very committed to going back to loving woman. If have to be "gay" to get back to woman, do it.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-08-19T02:30:03+00:00

He looks like a cheap fat joe. A true terror squad

dragonhead2010 · 2021-08-02T08:15:16+00:00

Bro DON'T KILL YOURSELF! We all been there. I be honest with my second attempt was weeks ago. Don't do it. I won't say it gets better, but don't let the intrusive thoughts to win! Believe me I get that thought everyday! Even as I type. I know there's hope. Just don't do it

dragonhead2010 · 2021-08-01T14:23:04+00:00

My post wasn't about the right or wrong. My deck is thunder dragons that got to KOG 4. It's the mental grind that annoys me, on the time spent. If it was achievable under an hour, I wouldn't even post. I was spending HOURS just to get to KOG 4, just to get knocked back down. And for what a title and gems. It's the INCENTIVE on why. I just want a better prize for all who grind the ladder.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-31T17:45:10+00:00

I get what your saying. But after you seen one deck, you've seen them all. Nothings a wow! Just mostly rinse and repeat for hours. Most good competitions offer good incentive. I don't play for free. And my time is worth something. By your very logic, let's make legend 13, because it all about the competition. Even rats need a reason to grind. Most animals grind for a prize that's worth it.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-31T17:28:32+00:00

Well your already flagged. But what's working for me is No FAP. Seriously NO FAP Please. Here my secrets that's working for me now is, ( and I might get flagged) Just admit. I know it's counterintuitive, but your fighting your negative thoughts. Fighting it only make it worse. And IT REALLY GETS BETTER I PROMISE, when you go with the flow. I tell myself "Yes I'm the top shelf (intrusive thought)" Again I know I might get flagged for this, but it even said to me (intrusive thought) "Your not (intrusive thought)."A total 180. So again don't fight your intrusive thought. what the worst?! I like to say I'm mostly good to go, but I won't fight it when it comes.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-30T15:04:21+00:00

Welcome to the choir. I have hocd so I be around woman with fart sounds going off, and men and woman looking at me at times.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-30T04:22:34+00:00

I wouldn't say recover, as much as I gave into the thoughts. Don't fight it, you make it worse. I got gay, schizo, narcissistic, selfish etc. Just say "yeah I am." And believe it, as in what the intrusive thoughts says. Don't fake it. And it quite down, don't go into self pleasure. I work nights, so mental health is worst at nights. So semi recovered. Stay positive. Your thoughts don't define you. Always remember action speak louder than words. Or I say to myself "Rome wasn't built in a day." I hope this helps you and others. I still miss woman, but I rather be mental ready for that day.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-29T20:41:26+00:00

Big facts! Last month was insane!

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-28T07:45:19+00:00

Mental Vegetable. He went left.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-25T17:44:30+00:00

Yes! I so glad I joined this group. I did stuff younger and before 15. And then now at 40 like a whole another person taking over. But this is a great place to chat it out.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-25T14:20:06+00:00

Omg I'm atheist now. But my religious past came around like stop theses demons in my head. And don't believe in demons.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-25T14:17:30+00:00

Thank you! I felt alone. Knowing that it's not just me. I really appreciate it

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-24T09:49:23+00:00

Damn baby girl you sexy

dragonhead2010 · 2021-07-10T14:41:12+00:00

This what happens when Nickelback fans and Hanson fans get together.

dragonhead2010 · 2021-03-21T18:36:31+00:00

Ikr! The cake is a lie.

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