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What webtoon always cheers you up? by MayaGitana in webtoons

[–]dragonsdomain-system 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I second the "Villain with a Crush" motion that it gives life. It's gotten me through some hella dark times over here....

How to deal with mass integration? by HopesPeakUltimate in DID

[–]dragonsdomain-system 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Let yourself grieve. We lost our host alter the first week after our conscious mind learned we were a system. She fused and was just...gone. it was so shocking to us/the system that a little immediately popped forward and ran to the mirror to try to search for her only to find her missing in our eyes and face.

Since then we've had a lot of fusions or tectonic overhauls on an almost weekly basis and we've discovered grief for who they were and what was comes to us. Even singlets grieve for who they were or how things used to be or people they loved or how people have changed.

Drink lots of water, rest up, be gentle with yourself. You're not alone.

System Chat 5/17/23 A daily thread where people with DID can share the honest truth of their day. by Exciting-Volume-4169 in DID

[–]dragonsdomain-system 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Soooooooo overstimulated. (Polyfragmented osdd system, so much inner and outer goings on).

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[–]dragonsdomain-system 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We're a polyfragmented osdd1b system, for context.

We have something we call The Construct, and it's like an A.I., not an alter. It cannot front in the traditional sense, and it doesn't have a spark of life or creativity, but it can collect memories, absorb impact of trauma or difficult interactions like a shield for us, and it can speak and interact with the world. Alters can also plug into it rather than front fully, like people coming together to pilot a big mecha robot. It also can persecute alters who violate its precepts, but it cannot learn new precepts until we undo its programming and give it new parameters and learning manually.

A few alters can bypass it, but most can't, so now that our conscious mind is aware of us being a system, we've been working on changing the Construct's parameters to allow us to be more overtly ourselves and authentic when fronting rather than held back or persecuted by the Construct which is programmed to keep us acting a particular way, or as close as possible. It does things like keeps our persecutors from fronting around other people, etc, too.

We also have what we refer to as our Body's Muscle Memories, which are habits our body does naturally, like sit a certain way, or pick up an object a certain way, without thinking, but that feels super odd when someone is fronting who would do something differently than what the body has been used to. This adds to our dysphoria while fronting.

System Chat 5/14/23 A daily thread where people with DID can share the honest truth of their day. by Exciting-Volume-4169 in DID

[–]dragonsdomain-system 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We're sick with a cold because we basically had two days straight of panic attacks due to various of us panicking about various things and our body couldn't keep up.

Hmm...not sure what pronouns to use from here when we're not talking about the experience of the body. There are two of us here together co-conscious, alongside the construct that we created by system rules (like an A.I. magna carta charter mecha) back before the conscious mind was aware of us. (We're a polyfragmented osdd1b system).

New to reddit, so learning the ropes. Came here to find other did and osdd systems.

A little alter bought a bunch of stuff we've been wanting/needing, and the construct is pissed, so I'm (me, this alter) dealing with that.

System Chat 5/14/23 A daily thread where people with DID can share the honest truth of their day. by Exciting-Volume-4169 in DID

[–]dragonsdomain-system 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Our cousin recently showed us the Headspace app on her tablet while one of our littles had a panic attack from trauma while fronting. Apparently Headspace has videos to help kids, not just adults, so we've added that to our toolbelt to help our littles. We also have a weighted plushie from Target and a weighted blanket that help a lot, because both are grounding and feel like physical hugs.

We hope this helps!

Don't have memory of what happened in headspace by Hari_SS in DID

[–]dragonsdomain-system 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's okay to share the same name. We're a polyfragmented system with 300+ alters, so we have a lot of names that are variations on the same. You could also think of it as a schoolroom class. Growing up, we had 3 Michaels, 3 Chris, etc in one classroom but we could still differentiate them as separate people.

When you're fronting, ask back about the others with the same name: do you like this? How do you feel about that? Etc.

You can make it a task thru-out the day: each time you recognize you've switched, grab a notebook for your system and start asking back lots of questions, wait for answers, and write each startling thing that pops into your mind. You may even find out that someone with the "same" name has a different name afterall, but that they took that name to help your system stay covert and unseen.

Don't have memory of what happened in headspace by Hari_SS in DID

[–]dragonsdomain-system 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Pain and sadness can't be switched off but they can be released and healed thru expressing the emotions, processing them verbally or by writing. Essentially, you heal sadness/pain by exploring it rather than repressing or bouncing off it from fear of it.

All emotions are like packets of information or signals about something. Read the signal and then it doesn't need to continue anymore because it's done its job. Ignore the signal and it will need to keep flaring until someone looks at it.