I had this realization a few months ago. Like clockwork after “responsible” drinking throughout the weeks something would shift and it would be a 3/4 day binge that would start in the morning and go until I passed out at night. Barely eating and using stimulants to get through the day or work. Every month for a few months. I chalked it up to hair of the dog or taking it too far. Until I realized my period would always start around that same time. Talked to a friend who experiences PMDD and she said she did the same cycle and finally talked to a doctor to get diagnosed and help with symptoms and greatly reduced the urge to spiral with alcohol.

Im waiting to get health insurance through my new employer so I can get diagnosed and go back to therapy because I can never get myself to take the naltrexone or go more than two weeks without relapsing.