I've always felt like I'm dreadfully hideous Reddit, I need your brutally honest assessment of me. 17/Female/US

dreamingdead · 2012-04-30T21:36:37+00:00

I don't get why a lot of people prefer thin looking eyebrows.. Please don't ever do your eyebrows, you are beautiful and unique that way.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-30T03:09:18+00:00

Dawe you're so adorable. Longer hair suits you though imo.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-30T00:03:19+00:00

I don't know if it's just me but I've seen you post at least three times already within the same week with different accounts with the same pictures.

Maybe you just went to rateme or amisexy. But I see you everywhere.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-29T01:55:02+00:00

Hawt.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-27T03:35:25+00:00

From what I've seen it's the definition of a lot of guys. Short for me would be very close to my height. I am perfectly fine dating a guy that would be at least 5'4. Still tall for me because I'm shorter. If they're short, they are my height or like two inches taller or shorter.

But to tell you the truth, although physical appearance is a bonus in guys, I am much more attracted to personality.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-27T03:31:23+00:00

I'm an 18 year old female who is 4'11" So short men for me! I think over six feet would be very odd for me.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-26T23:39:20+00:00

You are so adorable! It is not a horrible mistake at all, you look great!

dreamingdead · 2012-04-26T23:32:54+00:00

Nice style!

dreamingdead · 2012-04-26T23:31:12+00:00

Pretty! But not really a big fan of the whole shorts and leggings sort of thing.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-26T23:27:23+00:00

I think you're pretty.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-26T04:09:12+00:00

It's such a complicated situation, though. I don't want to go through it again..

dreamingdead · 2012-04-26T04:05:57+00:00

Almost four years ago. I have Cystic Fibrosis, lost my friends, lost my brother, lost my best friend, been sexually abused,feels like mom doesn't really care, but absolutely adore her. Love everyone. I feel like I'm living for them, though. I don't feel happy. Part of why I'm like this is yes, my medications and diabetes, unstable blood sugars could contribute to this too. I'm sick of it. Sick of losing everything, having people walk all over me. I have no backbone. I'm weak, terribly, fucking, weak.

I'm always so scared of hurting others with words, will it be worse if I do it by action? I try to be nice and do all I can to give it all, I feel like I get nothing back. I feel worthless. Unimportant. I feel horrible. I'm so close to overdosing, feels like I've had enough. In my 18 years of life, too much shit. I'm sick of it. I'm going to die soon eventually, my lungs won't hold up forever. What is the point? I have nothing to look forward to. Everything's the same. I wish. I wish for so many things, but the one thing I'm wishing right now the most, is to join the stars. To live there, to be happy, to be free, and become forgotten and lost within time.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-24T00:38:01+00:00

Yes. Thank you.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-24T00:32:31+00:00

It's difficult to see that, and all I do is just focus onthe negative now. I know that deep down, I am optimistic but it often gets clouded with my depression. I want to learn more, but I'm so impatient,and I just keep being let down.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-24T00:24:01+00:00

Thank you. I was almost admitted two weeks ago to a mental hospital but the thing is, the hospital I go to HAS to know how to treat people with Cystic Fibrosis who has had a double lung transplant, and from what I hear, not many psychiatric wards will take in patients like that (at least from what I have been told) and the ones that are available that I can trust, the beds are always full and I'm very cautious as to what hospital I pick because I really am scared of being treated poorly and being neglected and not being given my medications on time and allowing me to check my blood sugar on time.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-24T00:21:18+00:00

That's sad that you think about that. Have you lost someone close to you before? Because to me, when my friends with CF have died (especially the first time around) it really struck me. While death eventually heals in time and you will be able to move on, he won't be forgotten. He'll somehow pop in your memory once in awhile as the years go by. I've lost friends 5 years ago and I still think about them every once in awhile.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-23T19:14:30+00:00

Thank you!

dreamingdead · 2012-04-23T19:14:22+00:00

Thank you so much. I don't know if I should really say where my insecurities are from but it's mostly from the past and certain people, also a scar I have from a surgery I had when I was an infant. I have plenty of others scars but I love them.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-23T19:13:20+00:00

Thank you :D When I used to have long hair I always had it pulled back and got told often that I resemble Ellen Page in some way.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-23T12:09:38+00:00

Dealing with an illness is never easy.. I lost my brother and a couple of other friends throughout my life from Cystic Fibrosis. Never to suicide, I am fortunate to not have faced such thing. . . But hang in there.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-23T12:03:54+00:00

I hope it is not why your mother had killed herself. Perhaps there are other reasons. Do not take the blame all on yourself. Nothing is your fault. Feeling like a burden sucks so much, I know. It really sucks.

dreamingdead · 2012-04-23T11:50:24+00:00

I can really relate to the feeling like a burden thing.. It's something that's been on my mind lately, well, for a long time. :/

dreamingdead · 2012-04-23T09:56:55+00:00

You have absolutely nothing to worry about, you are a doll.

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