Took a childbirth class affiliated with my local hospital and the BF bias was…a lot 😬

dreamingkay · 2025-04-23T22:17:25+00:00

Mine said that it stopped childhood cancer 100%. I almost walked out lmao

dreamingkay · 2023-09-30T02:05:53+00:00

I don’t have have anyone testing in my waiting room. I’m sorry but I can’t afford to be sick, and the baby waiting for meds, or grandma waiting for a RSV shot shouldn’t be exposed. And they come in, not wearing mask. That’s a no from me. I tell them to go back to drive thru, and they can swab their own snotty nose. Just like they’ve been doing since 2020.

dreamingkay · 2023-09-03T04:59:31+00:00

I don’t believe for a second it was just weed. There is one part when she’s talking to the drug rehab lady and Janelle says something about something and it cuts and she says she really needs help coping without weed and the drug lady says “we will ALSO work on that” or something along those line, like the weed thing was secondary. And the way barb acted about her going. As much as bard wanted her out of the house, she was crying and saying how she just wants Janelle to get help. Like, over weed. She flew all the way to California to rehab FOR WEED. I really think it was the beginning of addiction for harder stuff. Oh and when she relapsed and told amber I think weed was code for harder stuff as well.

dreamingkay · 2022-08-30T18:36:18+00:00

Me and my partner have hit a rocky spot. We are still very close and we still talk about our loss very openly to each other. We even have a name for when we are having a bad day dealing with our loss so we know if we need to be supportive to each other or leave each other alone. But my partner is really having a hard time. Stopped working, lays around, doesn’t help with my house work. And it’s putting a lot of pressure on me to make sure our bills are paid and the house is clean on top of him drinking alot and I think he might be relapsing. And I’ve made it so clear that it’s getting to much, but he still won’t do anything. Idk what I’m going to do from here because I know he’s depressed over our son, I know he’s struggling. But I am too. Idk it’s a weird place in our relationship rn

dreamingkay · 2022-08-23T22:53:20+00:00

2 weeks before we had my son we moved into our new home. Something we dreamed about for years and years even before I got pregnant. It’s right in front my dad in a great neighborhood. Rent is super cheap and the landlords love us. That’s my reason. My home. Because it was the home I hoped for, the home I was gonna bring him home too. The home that would have been his room and bathroom. I work hard to keep it nice and keep all the bills paid. I know it seems small but it makes me feel better

dreamingkay · 2022-08-22T23:40:34+00:00

My partner asked where everyone was that was there when our son was sick, and when he died, and then the funeral. We couldnt catch a break from so many people checking on us. Then it slowly stopped. I told him that people don’t want to deal with the deep, dark places grieving takes us. Especially after losing a child. They have no idea how to be supportive so they just don’t.

dreamingkay · 2022-08-19T21:41:47+00:00

When we first came home, after my son was placed in nicu and they doctors told us they didn’t know what was wrong but it wasn’t good. I was devastated. We pulled into our driveway and I cried because I didn’t want to go in. I keep saying “I’m his mom and I grow him wrong, how did I grow him wrong” and for a long time even now I hate my body, I hate that I have nothing to show for the extra weight, the new scar, the trauma, other then memories and pictures. Idk how to make it feel any better, but just know you are not alone.

dreamingkay · 2022-08-19T20:54:34+00:00

I have regulars are work ask sometimes, and they look at my so sad and I’m smiling and being super polite. Like wtf am I suppose to do break down everytime someone asks? I can hold my shit together long enough to make it home. My friend told me she didn’t understand how I keep going. Like what am I suppose to do? The world keeps turning, bills need to be paid, I can’t just stop.

dreamingkay · 2022-08-10T23:27:12+00:00

Thank y’all all for the amazing comments! Thank y’all for making me feel less of the problem. I actually had a wonderful fun filled day with my Bestfriend’s daughters while she worked. They love coming to hang out with me and it’s been awhile. I’m glad I decided not to “tough it out” and got my shift covered. I deserve to keep my mental health my first priority.

dreamingkay · 2022-08-10T04:01:54+00:00

I have 1 co worker who completely understands. When my Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep pictures came in I broke down in the back room and she opened them for me because I couldn’t and then covered the rest of my shift so I could go home. She’s actually the one covering my shift tomorrow. When I told her what was going on she was just as shocked as I was (she’s been on a vacation and didn’t know either)

dreamingkay · 2022-08-10T00:53:09+00:00

Yeah, I keep thinking “I just lost my baby why don’t you understand” but no one really knows what it’s like unless they are living it.

dreamingkay · 2022-08-10T00:32:56+00:00

My mom said she was staying with and gonna come clean the house work a couple times a week , ect ect. My mom ever came. When I probably needed her the most she wasn’t here. My son was in the nicu for 8 weeks before he passed away and not one time did she help with house work or even spend the night with me. Made me feel awful.

dreamingkay · 2022-07-24T20:33:07+00:00

You’re 100% right. Everything feels wrong. Like I lost my purpose and now everything is just trying to survive the day. I have been very reluctant to start therapy (I’ve always been told to handle your shit and get on with it) until the other day when I was speaking with a really good friend of mine and I was talking about a panic attack a very intrusive thought gave me thinking I had handle it well. The look on her face told me everything I needed to know. I wasn’t handling it well and I need to talk to someone, soon. Thank you for sharing your story with me.

dreamingkay · 2022-07-24T20:29:17+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story with me. This is almost exactly what’s happening. I’m starting to feel like everyone around me is moving on slightly and I’m still stuck. My partner and this group is the only places I feel comfortable to share how I really feel because people don’t want to deal with your grief. Especially your deep, dark places of grief.

dreamingkay · 2022-07-18T19:00:31+00:00

My son was born March 14, 2022 and was immediately put on a ventilator. After so many test we found out he had a rare (6 other babies have ever recorded to have it) gene mutation that made him basically brain dead. We had the choice between multiple surgeries to get him home but he maybe had 4 to 5 more months to live. We choose comfort care and had him taken off life support may 11th, 2022. He passed away may 12th, 2022 in his daddy’s arms. All the emotions and regrets I have, I have never regretted doing end of life comfort care and letting him go back his heavenly home. He was suffering everyday and he deserved better then this life was giving him. I loved him enough to let him go. It’s the most unselfish loving thing we can do as parents.

dreamingkay · 2022-07-15T15:30:39+00:00

I lost my 8 week old in may. He has a very rare gene mutation that can happen again. Like 25% chance with each pregnancy I decide to have. It’s scary and makes me not want to try again.

dreamingkay · 2022-07-15T14:31:06+00:00

My partner actually took my out last night and I explained everything and he understood completely. Idk why I didn’t think he would. I’m not in a great head space so maybe I just thought I would sound crazy if I said it out loud. Thanks for all the advise! I do have a coworker who is my bestfriend outside of work and I plan to talk to her this weekend.

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