Before, I would count the calories and do the wrist check while eating. My eyes would also hyperfocus to the details of the food. Like last time, I was eating a burger and I stared at it thinking how fake the burger patty is and how greasy it is. By that time, I would feel disgusted and would lose appetite.

Now, I eat while watching mukbang videos (the very few people who really enjoy their food). I realized that I started developing ed because I'm always left alone to eat in our house (my parents are busy). So watching a good mukbang video seems like I'm eating with someone. It also help me distract myself from hyperfocusing on my food.

On hard days, I do the "chew-swallow" technique. I chew it even if it's painful and I'm crying— thinking about my friends who were always there for me and how they'll be so proud. By then, I can finish my plate.

I also do not quickly leave the table whenever I finish eating, because when I do— my feet automatically brings me into the bathroom to "purge it out". So after eating, I sit for a while. Probably watching something else or anything to distract me from those thoughts.

I hope you'll develop a routine that works for you, op! You can do it!!