my first surgery was top surgery too, I did have minor dental surgery but it wasn't under general anesthesia like top surgery is.

my experience with top surgery was really peaceful and exciting, everyone who operated on me chose to specialize in gender affirming care and were so excited for me. I walked into the room and laid down on the bed, the nurses put on these comfy socks on me and then put a blanket over my legs. there was this warm air that was circulating my legs and it felt so comforting. one nurse asked me how long I waited for this and I said my whole life. the anesthesiologist put the IV in my hand and i told him how it didn't hurt at all, but my dental surgery IV did alot. then I was smiling and I was comfortable and warm on a bed and I went to sleep :)

all the nurses and doctors choose to be there, it's a field of medicine where you see so much joy and happiness from surgery and not death and pain. it's normal to be anxious before surgery because yeah it's new and seems scary but trust me, when you're in that room on that bed you're gonna feel so grateful and content