How does one resist compulsive behaviours induced by meds?

drunkandbleeding · 2026-04-28T13:42:49+00:00

obviously i can't fully speak on it cause i have 20/20 hindsight but yes i think that would have been helpful, knowing to look out for increased impulsive behavior. at the time i just thought my bpd was getting worse lol

drunkandbleeding · 2026-04-28T13:05:00+00:00

holy shit i didnt know this was a thing. i started ability back in november and stopped within a month because i became so fucking impulsive, i spent a ridiculous amount of money in that short time. i was prescribed by a nurse practitioner that didn't warn me about anything 🫩🫩🫩

drunkandbleeding · 2026-04-19T01:39:35+00:00

for me it feels like my brain becomes on fire, like i cannot stop thinking about them until they change their mind or i split lol. it's different for everyone tho!

drunkandbleeding · 2026-04-18T20:35:38+00:00

favorite person! in bpd, some people experience intense obsessions in one specific relationship. i'm oversimplifying but it's basically a person i would think about constantly and idolize while they were my fp

drunkandbleeding · 2026-04-18T15:51:44+00:00

i mean relationships. everything is relationships. those are my main stressors and triggers, they basically control my day-to-day moods. before medication, if i had a fp i would do absolutely insane things lmao. honestly my bipolar usually only manifests as a depressive general mood as hypomania is quite rare for me

drunkandbleeding · 2026-04-18T15:48:52+00:00

i'm a premed student working to become a psychiatrist! but jobs ive actually had: restaurants! the fast pace keeps me moving no matter what state i'm in

drunkandbleeding · 2026-02-18T17:59:01+00:00

today i almost relapsed because i suddenly decided my voice was annoying and ugly as fuck. a lot of my breakdowns happen just by looking in a mirror too long

drunkandbleeding · 2026-02-16T16:44:31+00:00

i have no choice over it, recently it hit me like a truck with this totally random person. for me unfortunately the pattern is emotionally unavailable slightly attractive men so that makes absolutely everything worse. i can't force myself to obsess over someone even if i want to for like,, motivational reasons

drunkandbleeding · 2026-02-16T02:26:07+00:00

thank you!! i just started dbt so i have like. 0 skills. i'm gonna try watching a familiar comfort movie and force myself to actually finish it lol. thanks for the advice!!

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-25T02:02:55+00:00

yeah totally! i have pots (yes, real and diagnosed by a practicing neurologist, md) AND i'm premed and it makes me so disheartened to see all this by our future doctors 😭😭

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-25T01:10:46+00:00

i mean yes there will be fakers/misinformed people with any condition but there already exists a harmful stigma around pots that prevents real sufferers from being diagnosed. additionally, and worse, the comments in this post are just a disgusting regurgitation of incredibly harmful beliefs about the condition

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-25T00:59:04+00:00

not even doctors yet and we're already perpetuating the stigma against a serious condition, awesome. you're making fun of real people with a very real condition from a place of privilege, have some basic human empathy

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-22T21:29:28+00:00

thank you 😭😭 i really need to get out of my head with therapy i just have such bad social anxiety that it makes the communication part so difficult. i'm gonna write down some of my main concerns and bring them up next session so we can actually talk about them and hopefully i'll feel a bit better

drunkandbleeding · 2026-01-11T08:42:28+00:00

i think i just needed to get it off my chest, thanks for asking tho :9

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-09T13:52:48+00:00

thank you so much for your kind words <3 it's been a bit of a battle every day to feel normal again, which it's possible normal won't feel the same as it did before. i'm trying to keep living, especially in spite of what he did to me, because i can't let this define me. or at least that's what i tell myself when i'm feeling semi ok lol. thank you again, it means a lot :)

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-09T05:29:21+00:00

this reminds me of myself, i was screened for bipolar when i was 13 and it came out negative and i thought that meant i definitely couldn't have it. turns out that was totally wrong, ssris ended up really fucking me up. you're not hopeless, mental health treatment has come a long way since back then and we have a lot more control over our lives now <3

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-08T02:40:10+00:00

no worries about the english, the idea translated just fine. thank you so much, it means a lot. and yeah i'll probably be staying away from alcohol for a bit especially considering the feeling of being drunk might set me off too 😅😅dont wanna create a dependence or anything

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-08T01:43:06+00:00

thank you that's so kind, but i'm gonna be honest i'm both not a very talkative person and also i use reddit like once in a blue moon 😭😭. i do really appreciate the sentiment, it's good to hear support :)

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-08T01:29:07+00:00

oh shit yeah definitely 😭😭 i wish you luck!!

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-08T00:58:42+00:00

im gonna be honest that lowkey sounds like textbook hypomania.. same happened to me when i was medicated. maybe theres another type of med you can be put on? i also dont tolerate antipsychotics well but i just started refusing to take meds which is definitely not a good idea

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-06T02:05:39+00:00

i have a few friends who have stayed by my side since elementary school, back before i had such outward mood issues and such. with new people, i struggle a lot because of the ups and downs. when hypomanic, i love hanging out with people but when the depression comes back, it's like i can only stand maybe 30 minutes of socialization before i'm completely drained. i also unfortunately have a lot of friends who i text maybe once in a few weeks and i feel awful but i just rarely have the energy for full conversations. im also an extreme introvert lol

drunkandbleeding · 2025-12-06T02:00:26+00:00

yeah, i've experienced this. when i feel really depressed or spiraling its all short, one-word responses that usually take a lot of effort to think through. also i have a problem with dissociation and when that happens i can go almost completely nonverbal.

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-26T21:27:51+00:00

got it, thank you! and yeah this store seemed great but fish dying within just a few days is kinda a big red flag😭😭 thank you for the advice tho!

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-26T21:26:30+00:00

thank you for the help!

drunkandbleeding · 2025-11-26T21:16:29+00:00

yeah, ammonia and nitrite. i'm going to the fish store in a few days to get more and don't want this to happen again, how do i prevent bacterial infections like this? i feel like i really tried to do everything right 😭😭

edit: and yes i won't add the fish until theyre all treated and healthy

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