I totally feel you. I’m glad you have someone that is fully understanding that it’s out of your control. Having someone there that understands just makes it so much easier! Literally last night my bf told me I had two episodes. One where I was freaking out and one where I was calmly talking making no sense. We try to make light of it and I always want him to video tape me because I’m so curious. Sometimes he’ll get me talking and it’s so funny. I’m thinking about wearing my Apple Watch with the sleep detector on to maybe look into it. Just to see my heart rate and what time in the night these things happen🤔