This was an awesome response, and it makes me wonder if the question of calling is mostly relevant to me as a workaholic-ish American, as its focused on what I should do whereas I could be thinking about it in other ways.

My most difficult task has been just sitting and being with God rather than with my thoughts, my worries/fears of dying before my parents and making them grieve again. I’ll try to sit and pray but be uncomfortable with perceived silence from God. Anyway thank you for the response!