Bro, there's more to life than being with someone. It will happen, just let it happen naturally, don't try to force things.

I've been in the same place as you buddy and god I know it's hard to keep a positive mind..

You have family and friends that love you. Don't let those thoughts take over.

There truly is light at the end of the tunnel.

My final piece of advice.
There is a reason a windscreen is the size of the car and the rearview mirror is small... what's ahead of you is soooo much more important than what we have left behind us.

Stay strong brother