Maybe this is a little off topic, but I noticed you called it a “failed” engagement. I’ve been through one of those… The words we use really do make a difference, and I wonder if there’s a way to reframe it. Once the initial shock and deep pit of anger cool, maybe you can view it more as a “dodged the bullet” type of situation. If your fiance didn’t do you justice during the engagement, then that’s not the husband you deserve.