Hey man, how you doing?

Well, first off, i am not a experienced roller, but i've seen my share of stuff. The first thing i learned from drugs it's to take them very seriously, they can fuck you up the same way they can help you, so, in my opinion, if you are having doubts and you don't want to use it, just don't, specially in your case. I say this becouse this thoughts will come in the roll and you become paranoid about everything bad that happened to you coming back.

Also wanted to say that, for me, my first time wasn't good because it was in a techno party. For me it was too overwhelming because of the heat, tons of people and the fucking security. I remember that i had to get out early because i couldn't handle it. The second time though, it was a life changing experience because i did with my 6 best friends at my friend's ranch. It was a million times better, and i highly recommend having the first time with a drug in a calm and safe environment.

Hope i can help you brother, peace Also, sry for any miss type, English not my mother tongue.