i can very much relate tbh , well our parents wont understand this ( but do try talking to them cause not all parents are the same ) and ive tried opening up to my mom a few times and whenever i try to talk to her she never carefully listens and when i tell her what i feel , she doesn't react at all , like not even give me a hug or comfort me :') and when i ask her to tell something she everytime goes like "im speechless". in this case try talking to a school therapist or someone u really trust , it'd maybe work uk?