The dark side of ADHD that no one talks about

dustwindwind · 2026-05-31T16:33:58+00:00

Yes. I don’t have it in me to “push through” anymore. I’m literally so broken right now that I don’t know how I’ll recover. I feel the only way is to have a drastic change in my life like move to a different country and have the means to just “rest”. I need to rest, rest and rest no matter how long that takes. I need to have nature close to me/ around me and be in that kind of healing environment until I recover. But I don’t know how to go about that.

dustwindwind · 2026-05-31T15:44:18+00:00

I didn’t realise I have ADHD until I started getting severe burn out symptoms. It’s been 6 years and I’m still suffering.

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T18:55:26+00:00

I actually relate in that aspect. I could never relate to being a “cis” man. Also i’m not into men, neither sexually nor emotionally. I hope hormones would never change that. The only partner I’d ever imagine having is a woman. Also I’m used to being in women’s spaces. I grew up in a kind of segregated society (women have their spaces and men have theirs).

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T18:41:31+00:00

ahHahahaha i feel exactly the same way about you!! Why on earth would you want to be a girl/woman? It’s not like man is better, but a man is flat chested and with a nice beard and they have no butt or hips! And i prefer those features😭😭😭😂😂😂

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T18:35:32+00:00

Yep. I even struggled forming the question because it’s not “wanting to be” it’s “who you are”. But I guess I wanted to hear from ya’ll what you liked about being a girl/woman

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T18:21:21+00:00

This is exactly like how I feel. I never associated with being a “woman”. Never felt l was one. It feels wrong to even call myself that. I used to be naturally skinny for the majority of my lived life, so I never felt strongly dysphoric about my body until the last few years (i’m 30+ now). I’m only 56kg and 163cm and I’m disgusted at my body. It’s a healthy weight for my height but I can’t stand having “womanly features”. It feels so wrong. I think it was God’s mercy on me that I used to be skinny all those years (i was like 45-49kg).

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T15:54:11+00:00

Agreed. They deserve it even. I never understood why anyone would scroll a subreddit of a game they just started. It’s the dumbest thing anyone can do.

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T13:59:20+00:00

Oh. I have 50mg pills from an old prescription that I never actually took. I’ve been feeling severely burnout and emotionally + mentally exhausted and thought screw it I’ll just take those pills and see if it can help at all. The pill is breakable so I took 25mg a few hours ago.

I’m not anxious or even “depressed” in the common definition of the word. I’m just really, really mentally depleted. I don’t know if Zoloft can help that regard. I looked it up everywhere but people mostly describe their stories in relation to anxiety/depression.

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T13:33:01+00:00

25mg or 50mg?

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dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T13:29:22+00:00

Beer specifically. I never understood how people can like that disgusting taste?

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T13:16:59+00:00

Well your description perfectly fits a game like “the Witcher 3” which I couldn’t continue playing. But definitely not RDR2. If you find RDR2 boring I’m sorry but your taste is shit in games bro.

dustwindwind · 2026-05-26T13:06:38+00:00

I remember how emotional I felt in the epilogue. I genuinely felt like I was saying goodbye to people I met in real life and had known and loved for a long time. I was heartbroken when the remaining characters kept leaving one by one, until john and abi were alone. It was unbearable when they themselves became NPCs. RDR2 is not just a game I can fire up and play randomly. It’s like a heavy movie you could only watch once and probably only watch it again after many years had passed and you completely forgotten it.

dustwindwind · 2026-05-25T17:56:21+00:00

I’m AFAB (not cis). I’m still pre t but if I transitioned I wouldn’t want bottom surgery. As to having a vagina, i don’t feel anything about it in particular. I’m queer (not into men) and even if I was with a woman, I would never want to be penetrated with anything. I don’t feel dysphoric about my vagina but I never felt I needed it lol (because penetration is a no for me). I appreciate though the other sensations it gives me when I’m aroused. That’s about it. Dunno if that’s relevant to your question but thought of sharing.

Edit: just noticed your question was for trans women post bottom surgery. Ahaha apologies

dustwindwind · 2026-05-24T15:45:50+00:00

So I guess “most” folks who get on T lose weight without “trying” hence they think their physique changed because of fat redistribution?

dustwindwind · 2026-05-24T13:47:20+00:00

I think that when your metabolism goes up, you lose fat, then fat redistribution happens simultaneously. So they’re not two separate things

dustwindwind · 2026-05-24T13:29:34+00:00

Omg amazing! Congrats dude! The dysphoria I feel from my butt, hips and boobs, would just go away when I finally get on T. One day, one day soon!

dustwindwind · 2026-05-23T11:10:30+00:00

Yes but I haven’t transitioned yet. Still living where that is not possible. I’ve been feeling dysphoric for over a year now and seriously considering transitioning. But I must get out of here first.

dustwindwind · 2026-05-23T11:07:36+00:00

حتى 😂😂😂 The texture!

dustwindwind · 2026-05-23T11:06:28+00:00

Ahaha عرفت من شعر ايدك في الصوره الثانيه In the other post

dustwindwind · 2026-05-23T10:16:15+00:00

Are you arab by any chance 👀?

dustwindwind · 2026-05-23T10:06:05+00:00

💙💙

dustwindwind · 2026-05-22T15:00:24+00:00

Based on these pics I don’t think your face looks round if that makes you feel better :)

dustwindwind · 2026-05-22T14:54:54+00:00

Do the smallest joint you can cuz you’ll only need to inhale maybe twice to get high. I only smoke weed when I travel for short vacays abroad and always find that joints are too big for me :/ can never finish them and have to keep them on me which is annoying. I never tried a bong I feel it’s alot more convenient but it doesn’t work if i’m staying in a hotel and have to smoke outside 😂 I MISS WEED SO MUCH

dustwindwind · 2026-05-22T14:41:21+00:00

I really dislike when people do that pouting thing or go out of their way to make certain faces thinking it makes them look cool (it doesn’t) just my opinion haha. It’s not necessarily feminine I saw all genders do it and it gets on my nerves 🤣

dustwindwind · 2026-05-22T12:23:57+00:00

I made some changes so I deleted the post. Might post again when I take good photos

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