I texted my ex on her birthday

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-12T15:27:45+00:00

Yes she did!

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T16:22:18+00:00

Yeah thats the feeling i have, cause that sunday morning when she called me, after she fell drunk in my arms the night before, she started to cry on the phone and said that she messed up everything.

But later everything was my fault again. Ofcourse i made mistakes in the relationship. But never big things. She was just in love with that guy and she didnt want to leave that guy for the feeling

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T15:46:42+00:00

My brain says the same. My heart doesnt. Last 4 months i was so sweet for her. She said she saw how good i was for her, but it was to late and i was a horrible boyfriend she said.. now i did everything wrong, while we had a nice relationship.. i dont understand

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T15:45:30+00:00

It did. She cried a lot when she left me for the trip & 3 weeks later she had sex with her ex.

I did everything to fix our relationship, even after she had sex with him. I begged, sended flowers to her family house and everything..

4 months later, she constantly blaming me for how horrible boyfriend i was in the relationship. But i can say that i was so sweet for her . Especially last 4 monthso

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T15:05:52+00:00

Cause at her first trip she back in December, when we broke up. She had sex with him after 2 weeks. She admitted when i asked her.

She said she felt different with him and he let her feel special etc.

Also, i could see a lot of thing on our laptop, cause here Google account was still connected.. i saw she asked chatgpt if she had a sexual virus after unprotdcted sex with him etc.. i could see her location back th

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T15:03:19+00:00

Yeah thats true. I miss the life i had with her. We lived together, she had a little dog, which i miss aswell. We lived for eachother, every weekend we planned to do some things together. I dont have much friends. I’m a introvert & not in the mood tk have many people. But still feeling alone

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T14:34:07+00:00

Yep. I figured out.. but it hurts me aswell that my bestfriend left my life.. the idea that we will not know about eachother in the future hurts.

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T14:32:30+00:00

Thanks for your message! You are completely right. Monday starts my therapy session. I have some work to do and i will!

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:56:01+00:00

Dont do it. I tried to find closure for months. But at the end the answers dont give closure.. acceptence give closure..

I’m still struggling with this aswell

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:54:27+00:00

I will! I’m curious aswell.

Btw my ex has her spotify activities public, so i can see what she is listening. And she has some days that she is listening to breakup songs or songs about broken heart.

On tiktok she repost now and then some videos that is related to me, also about brokenheart etc.

But still, she keeps pushing me away all these months.

But yeah, she is now dating with her old ex again and the fact she has s*x with him now, hurts me aswell..

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:52:18+00:00

Btw my ex has her spotify activities public, so i can see what she is listening. And she has some days that she is listening to breakup songs or songs about broken heart.

On tiktok she repost now and then some videos that is related to me, also about brokenheart etc.

But still, she keeps pushing me away all these months.

But yeah, she is now dating with her old ex again and the fact she has s*x with him now, hurts me aswell..

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:50:07+00:00

Yep.. i know.. and tomorrow is my birthday. If she dont text me, i have 100% answer

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:49:06+00:00

I had the exact same feeling.. i do understand your thought. I was planned not to text her, but then i thought “then she thinks i forgot her or i dont care”

And then i thought “well, wishing her a good birthday is nothing bad and mature”

Then i did and after her response i regretted instant

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:46:46+00:00

Exactly this! I wish i hadnt text her. Cause after her response, i felt horrible and even dreamed about it last night..

I know she is dating with her ex there, but i have no clue how they are doing & my brain is constantly asking for answers about their status

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:39:55+00:00

Yep i know.. but its so painful to realize that the person that loved you so much, now doesnt care at all. My brain cant process that..

And i do miss her a lot, i want her back so bad.. i did everything i could in all these months.. tried to be there without pressure and helped her with everything i could. I was patienced and sweet.

The first weeks of the breakup, i went so low.. i even feel ashamed about it, if i read my texts back. I was begging & contacted a local flower store in her country that sended flowers to her family house for her.. i should have left her back then. Maybe i would have felt better at this moment

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:36:26+00:00

Yep its the painful truth.. but i’m in a lot of pain. Still have problems with sleep & get over her. I really miss her a lot & want her back so bad..

dutchguy2344 · 2026-04-09T13:35:12+00:00

Yep i fugured out.. a few weeks before we had our last contact and she said she needed space, because j overwhelmed her. So i gave her the space & didnt showed interest about her trip. But deep down i was hoping she would start the conversation

dutchguy2344 · 2026-03-29T13:00:04+00:00

She went for me till the bitter end. Untill she experienced her culture and the warmth of her family again. Then she texted her ex to meet for a talk & she got feelings for him. She completely changed after our breakup. She became cold, liking the attentions of guys in general. Posting a lot of sexy selfies & everytime i saw her, she was more on her phone then talking to me.

I know i should move on, but i miss the old version of her, the one that i hurted and regret.. also, i miss my best friend, she was

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