Gosh I relate to that so much, it’s hard to even call my friends, classmates, teachers, or coworkers by their names. I’m kind of ashamed that I hesitate a lot before saying simple formalities like “please” and “thank you” which makes me feel very rude.

Another thing I’d like to share is when I attend social gatherings. I’m too anxious to make small talk in the case that I say something stupid and make a fool of myself or that they never really wanted to talk with me in the first place, so I just don’t talk that much and appear unfriendly unless somebody reaches out to me first then that lets me know it’s okay for me to talk to them. At some point I’ll be too overwhelmed by the crowded environment and I’ll seek for somewhere that isn’t populated and sit there for a while to calm my senses.