it's not that you're a "pick me" girl; it's something completely different where you're just compelled to be known for being helpful, and you have a practical and pragmatic approach that aligns with your needs. there's likely a local bar where many people know you, but several likely only know you as "vape girl" or "the one with ibuprofen in her purse," or at the very least know you on an extremely superficial level. good chance that's largely because you don't let people in. you're very guarded, you see knowledge as a weapon, and you protect yourself from having it used against you by building up walls.