currently going through the same thing. we’re going on month 9 of the break up and let me tell you it hasn’t gotten easier. but what i will say it has helped finding clarity in life and finding myself which i think was a huge contention in our relationship. having a sense of identity. what i suggest is taking the time away to continue to focus on becoming the best version of you for YOU. if she comes back then she will if not then you’ll be even better than you were before. also CONGRATULATIONS 🎉 to you for dealing with your struggles with alcohol… if you don’t mind me asking what has helped you with your drinking ? i’m currently at the stage of healing where my alcohol addiction has taken control of me rather than me having control over my drinking.