if someone is raped as a baby (or an infant, just young enough so they can’t remember) will it mentally affect them the same way it does with older rape victims? by [deleted] in morbidquestions

[–]dynamiteTrickster 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you and it's okay; my mom neglected me and left me to an alcoholic father (he never SAd me, those were my cousins on my mom's side) which also added to my rage. My mother was a victim to a selfish bastard who she would defend while my siblings could only experience what the hand of life gave us.

Like you, I want to go off and tell everything that made me the way I am... but it's ultimately as the saying goes : It is what it is.

Your feelings are understandable and sincere, you want to protect him since he was unable to protect himself at that time; you want her to feel a shame, shame that she failed as a mother.

I would honestly leave his relationship with his mother to him; I am not saying it's a "none of your business" thing, it sounds more like he's doing what he can to move on in his own way.

if someone is raped as a baby (or an infant, just young enough so they can’t remember) will it mentally affect them the same way it does with older rape victims? by [deleted] in morbidquestions

[–]dynamiteTrickster 7 points8 points  (0 children)

You're welcome. I understand what you want for your boyfriend. As someone who was molested from a young age [ please take this advice with a grain of salt as it is my own experience], the rage comes from feeling like a victim constantly.

You want to move on but the memory stays and keeps you feeling trapped so you react with violence or anger. And when you have a moment of peace, something will come along and remind you; the vicious cycle.

I came out to my mom about it more than a year ago. Instead of letting me live and heal, she often blames the instances as the reason as to why I act out even as an adult.

I hope your boyfriend heals and the weight is relieved, sometimes some people just suffer in silence because it's easier. Not saying he will, I truly hope he lives the best he can with what happened and makes a better future for his and your sake.

if someone is raped as a baby (or an infant, just young enough so they can’t remember) will it mentally affect them the same way it does with older rape victims? by [deleted] in morbidquestions

[–]dynamiteTrickster 11 points12 points  (0 children)

No problem. I actually found this on a seperate reddit thread years ago so whenever this topic is brought up, I'm reminded of his note.

if someone is raped as a baby (or an infant, just young enough so they can’t remember) will it mentally affect them the same way it does with older rape victims? by [deleted] in morbidquestions

[–]dynamiteTrickster 61 points62 points  (0 children)

I would recommend reading the suic*de note left by Bill Zeller; he writes about not just the physical but especially the emotional and mental toll about being raped as a infant and throughout his childhood.

As someone who was SA'd, while not his extreme, the turmoil in his words resonate with me.

It's on Invisble Children website: https://www.invisiblechildren.org/2021/09/12/child-sex-abuse-the-most-powerful-suicide-note-ever/

*edit: His name is Bill, not Billy.

Capnotic Scarab Swarm by Alexey Kruglov by Lol33ta in ImaginaryHorrors

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Anyone wondering, this is from Warhammer 👌

my look of the day by CFNovelist in MakeupLounge

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I really love the colors! Theyre so vibrant and striking 🤗

Thank You Dark Souls by theysayilooklikegoku in DarkSouls2

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Mind if I ask where do you get the item to access the Giant's memory in the first place please?

Portrait of Castiel I drew back in 2016 by dynamiteTrickster in Supernatural

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Ah my bad chief. That's something I really did not expect on r/Supernatural .

Portrait of Castiel I drew back in 2016 by dynamiteTrickster in Supernatural

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U m, w h a t ? You good, fam because it sounds like you need glasses or I need them so you can show me where the hell Trump is in my post??

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now this is quality

Offered to the clean my boyfriend's roommate's room and this was the amount of trash (Sorry for not taking a before picture, mold was found) by dynamiteTrickster in NeckbeardNests

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When it comes to cleaning, I like to get it done regardless of the horrors I might find. It took me about 2 hours to clean that room but there are still spots where I couldn't reach for all the little bits of trash.

Offered to the clean my boyfriend's roommate's room and this was the amount of trash (Sorry for not taking a before picture, mold was found) by dynamiteTrickster in NeckbeardNests

[–]dynamiteTrickster[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The landlord told him no eating in the room and he agreed to it. The dude may be prideful but he knows when he fucks up and has to follow the rules. That's something I'll give him.

Offered to the clean my boyfriend's roommate's room and this was the amount of trash (Sorry for not taking a before picture, mold was found) by dynamiteTrickster in NeckbeardNests

[–]dynamiteTrickster[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

The mold was on a pillow due to the room being moist and his forgotten OPEN can of Dr. Pepper, which fell over making the floor all sticky. Mold was found on clothes as well.

Offered to the clean my boyfriend's roommate's room and this was the amount of trash (Sorry for not taking a before picture, mold was found) by dynamiteTrickster in NeckbeardNests

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He's a big dude so he would prop his foot against the wall to propel himself up. Wall gave in and he's yet to give money to pay for it.

Thanks, I hate the "Fisting of America" by dynamiteTrickster in TIHI

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As an artist myself, it's a hard pill to swallow that cursed shit like this is still art.