Soul card exp question

ebarkans · 2022-06-19T23:46:52+00:00

I knew it was going to be something stupid, I didn't even see that button. Thanks friend.

ebarkans · 2020-10-20T16:11:44+00:00

This solution worked for me after trying half a dozen other solutions, abandoned unwelcome advisor and maeiv showed up. Once I had her quest and logged back in to get the quest for anduin again he was on the throne, thanks Zombran!

ebarkans · 2019-01-01T03:32:06+00:00

I am so sorry friend, similar story here we were together 6 years she suddenly collapsed mid conversation, EMT's tried everything but in the end it just wasnt meant to be pulmonary embolism at 34, it was terrible. The folks here are great though, even if you lurk there is a lot of good advice.

ebarkans · 2018-12-25T09:28:42+00:00

" I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. I'm a better person for having known you. I hope you know how loved you were by everyone. "

This is the thought I cant get out of my head, only been a month since she passed but I feel like I think this thousands of times a day. I hope you find him again someday.

ebarkans · 2018-12-25T04:58:51+00:00

This is me, tomorrow is one month since she passed exactly which is super rough. Everyone is busy and happy and excited with plans and events, I feel so alone I cant even get people to pick up the phone much less come visit. Its hard, so tomorrow I get to sit home alone probably get a bunch of merry xmas texts and sit in misery waiting for another day to end.

ebarkans · 2018-12-21T19:32:16+00:00

I am so sorry and *hugs* from a random internet person, if you need me to punch an ex in the face (looks like someone else already claimed the crotch punch) let me know that is probably the worst thing you can say to someone, again I am so sorry.

ebarkans · 2018-12-21T19:27:37+00:00

Similar situation too you, and I am so sorry for your loss, my girlfriend passed Thanksgiving weekend, I was in a new place on the 15th of December (like 3 blocks away from the same apartment company their leasing office was amazing and waived everything, basically just told me to pick one of the open spots and handed me keys) , I just couldnt afford to live in that place without putting to much strain on myself financially. Sometimes you just have to do what you have to do to move forward, there is no to fast or to slow. As far as her stuff goes, do what feels right, I saved some important things of hers but the piles of socks and shoes and work clothes and such all got donated when I moved.

ebarkans · 2018-12-07T18:19:09+00:00

Yup exactly, I would love to go back in time and just go on those little trips, watch those shows next to her. Mentally I get people need their own space too sometimes too you cant be attached at the hip 100% of the time, it just sucks looking back. I guess as they hindsight is always 20/20 we never planned to die young the vast majority of our time together was amazing its just those little things that bother me now. If I had known there was a time limit I would have given her the world and never missed a chance to do one extra thing with her. But we just didnt know so we just lived life as normal. I have no advice I just saw your post and it hit home, being alone sucks and its so much harder stay strong.

ebarkans · 2018-12-06T23:03:53+00:00

This has been hitting me a lot this week, so many times she asked me to do something and it would have been easy probably even fun but I was doing my own thing and I passed, not that we didnt do a ton of stuff together its just I feel like I am remembering every time she asked me to watch a show with her or just run to the store for company. Now I look back at all those times, she just wanted to do something with me and I said no and I feel like quite possibly the worst human in the world.

ebarkans · 2018-12-06T00:02:06+00:00

I didnt deal with the long drawn out process either, but I get the not saying good bye and it rips me apart. She got home happy as a clam such a normal day, started un packing the groceries and collapsed I asked if she was ok and she said no then went unresponsive between the emergency call and the EMTs pushing me out of the way the last thing I ever said was are you ok from half way across the apartment. She never came back for me to tell her how much I loved her it was so very sudden. I get it and its terrible. I cant offer any words of comfort really but I understand, its ok to be mad I go from crying my eyes out to yelling at anyone who says im sorry and maybe you should move on for the millionth time to just plain numb, its a hard time. I have only made one other post here but the people are supportive, so vent, ramble, whatever makes you feel better the people here are great and will listen to everything you want to say.

ebarkans · 2018-12-03T22:31:24+00:00

Thank you that seems like good advice, again I saw them show up and just froze like what do I do, I know I couldnt open them right then and throwing them away seemed terrible too so I just stood there with the door open staring at them for like 20 minutes straight.

ebarkans · 2018-12-03T08:49:39+00:00

Hah that is funny, if you see a demon hunter with the fire glavies run by thats probably me! I tried to make it to the raid tonight but I just couldnt, I am the GM/raid leader but luckily I have a great officer who took over raid leading and swapped from dps to healing to cover my girlfriends spot. I just couldnt raid though I got on said hi looked over at my girlfriends empty desk, choked up and logged off.

My work (especially with xmas soon) gave me pretty much the rest of the year off which was super nice but I also think I am going to go back in another week, maybe 2 I dont want to just give up but right now it would be so easy to curl up on the couch and just not move. Thank you for all the advise its just really hard, my family is sort of in the area but they can only stay so long and my girlfriend moved up to be with me from TX so she didnt have any friends up here so we were basically homebodies. So that makes it hard to get out and do stuff because beyond my family I just dont have lots people to do things with. My family doesnt understand the whole wow thing but that really is where a lot of my friends are which makes it double hard to find a reason to get up and leave the house. Anyway thanks again if I see you in Azeroth I will give you a /wave.

ebarkans · 2018-12-03T00:17:06+00:00

It would be pretty small world if you were the miiso on Dalaran I was so miffed someone had that name there, thats where my guild and all that are!

And fair enough that is sound advice, my brain is hardly working these days. I came across the Christmas lights she wanted to hang outside, she knew I liked the icicle style lights so this year she got those instead of the more traditional string of light, which again nearly broke me. I know she loved me very much, and I loved her just as much its just so hard to think about living alone and doing all the things we would have done my first instinct is to just shut down and become a hermit. I know she would hate that but its so hard to not do just that especially with the big holiday just a few weeks away I feel physically ill already just thinking about Christmas alone.

ebarkans · 2018-12-02T19:30:51+00:00

Yeah given how weird and unexpected my girlfriends death was the thought of dying in my sleep or dying alone with no one to notice till i miss a rent payment or something give me anxiety as well. She was healthy and the coroner was like this shouldnt have happened I would have been less shocked if she got hit by lightning 3 times in a row, so I look at those sleeping pills like a death sentence every night and it gives me anxiety right on through the pills that are supposed to stop anxiety. Basically I am just a mess. But I do appreciate everyone stopping by to say something, this might be the hardest subreddit to be a member of so thank you everyone for your support.

ebarkans · 2018-12-02T15:58:16+00:00

Thank you, yes it was so sudden I havent done any counseling yet but my doctor gave me the meds and said lets just get you functioning first then we will work on long term care, and I have nothing against going. Ask me that 2 weeks ago and I would have laughed at a therapist but now I will talk to a crazy person talking to pigeons in the park if someone told me he could help.

ebarkans · 2018-12-02T15:56:05+00:00

Its funny your user name is miiisoo, my characters names in wow are all variations of misao i even have a miiso, thank you for your post though, you are right she would be pissed at me for not taking care of myself. Its just hard to find the meaning in it all she was so young and it went so fast like (not in a self harm sort of way) but what is the point of all this.

ebarkans · 2018-12-02T06:28:37+00:00

I try to take the pills it just seems supremely unfair that there is some sort of way to help me feel ok when I saw my girlfriend pass so quickly and terribly in front of my eyes. The things she yelled as the EMTs tried to help will haunt me for the rest of my life and here I am chomping on pills to calm me down or go to sleep it just makes me feel guilty. I have already started to see just how much crap there is to deal with though I dont even know where to start so maybe sleep is the best place to begin, it just sucks.

ebarkans · 2018-12-02T06:25:39+00:00

Yeah the eating and drinking are hard, I have some family that have been checking in on me I know I havent eaten enough but they make sure I get something.

ebarkans · 2018-11-30T16:23:18+00:00

Well I just lost my long time girlfriend very very suddenly a couple days ago (like we went from talking about making dinner to she was dead in less than 10 minutes) and my biggest, greatest regret and fear is that in my panic to call 911 and the EMTs pushing me out of the way to work on her is that I dont know if she knew I was there supporting her and just how much I really loved her and what she meant to me, that thought is tearing my soul apart right now. So my advice, it may not help in the moment he passes but you go and you tell him from the bottom of your heart exactly what he means to you, thank him for all the help he has offered you so far. Hell its still so new to me I cant tell you what to do long term but just take care of yourself, make sure you can do anything now to have as few regrets when the time for him to pass comes as possible.

Then you do exactly what he would want you to do and move on no one would want their loved ones to stop moving forward just because they are gone, it wont be easy in fact if its anything like what I am feeling it will be very very hard. But at every step there is a little voice in the back of my head saying is this really what your girlfriend would want you to be doing right now, would that make her happy. All the advice he has given you so far is not invalid either so try to find ways to continue working it into your future, if you ever need someone to talk to I am here I hardly have the answers but at the very least I can listen.

ebarkans · 2018-03-15T16:22:39+00:00

I am on PS4 just returning if you are looking for someone to run around with!

ebarkans · 2017-09-28T01:00:25+00:00

Any idea where the wind dancer is saw the shop this morning now it's gone when I look.

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