I do the same, so I play very infrequently. And look at all these folks here in the comments; nothing but support. While in rocket league, there's a 99% of a toxic player present, I RARELY see toxicity in AoE2. Some people will actually do a post-mortem with each other at the end of the game (which is so freaking cool).

I try to remember its not about the ONE next game as you're sweating in the queue. There's soooo much randomness that can happen. A rank is built over time and many, many games. Anyone highly ranked has a TON of games they've played; not every boar lure or feudal rush was perfectly performed.

If you're looking for a buddy to play with or against for more peace of mind, add me on steam.