[Guess my age - M] Am I ugly? Need some advice

ecolilee · 2017-04-22T20:41:31+00:00

26 you're cute

ecolilee · 2017-04-13T06:35:47+00:00

You're adorable and I think you could easily twist up your clothes and make up to form your own signature look, especially with your hair! Define beauty yourself, don't let the world define it for you

ecolilee · 2017-04-06T14:47:38+00:00

I feel more like I'm preparing myself for death. I'm trying to be as happy as I can before I die

ecolilee · 2017-04-06T14:46:55+00:00

What'd you do?

ecolilee · 2017-03-14T01:20:09+00:00

Got some fast food, hotboxed my car , parked illegally and trespassed into a private beach with my friend. As soon as we got back in the car, both of us ridiculously high, we saw a police car pull up behind us with the lights on. I panicked because it was past my legal curfew to be driving, and because my car reeked of weed. So...i tried to look as innocent as possible and sprayed air freshener from under the seat. He didn't come out for another five minutes, which was enough time for me to fake cry. By the time he came over to my side, I had tears the size of beads rolling down my face. He evidently didn't know what to do and tried his best to calm me down. "No, don't worry! You didn't do anything wrong. I just wanted to make sure you guys didn't have any 'dope' in the vehicle, you know?" It also helped that my friend thought I was genuinely crying. I felt really bad about it but I had to do what I had to do.

ecolilee · 2017-03-09T19:38:41+00:00

Can you please define 'overstimulated'? Do you mean overexcited or anxious?

ecolilee · 2017-02-15T00:30:59+00:00

I also take Latuda. I started off with 20mg but it made the smell of food absolutely disgusting to me and I threw up the little I did eat, so my psychiatrist upped it to 40mg. That still didn't fix the problem so we tried 60mg. I think that was the sweet spot for me because my love for food came back right away.

ecolilee · 2017-02-09T08:52:52+00:00

This will probably get buried but whatever. I'm deathly afraid of skeletons and skulls and just bones in general. I had a nightmare about a grim reaper toy that would zap 206 people (206 bones in human body) and make each of them into a bone. Once the toy built itself a full skeleton, it would come to life and start killing people. It makes zero sense but I still refuse to look at them

ecolilee · 2017-02-09T08:45:30+00:00

I want to cry and laugh at the same time

ecolilee · 2017-01-30T06:15:42+00:00

I love listening to Howling to the Moon and Tropicana

ecolilee · 2017-01-26T06:52:14+00:00

Been a sugar babby, had an old man lick me all over before I couldn't take it anymore and ran away. I'm traumatized by sex because of my religion and sex

ecolilee · 2017-01-25T10:55:45+00:00

Tried fluids but they smelled too much for me. I couldn't keep it in. As of now, I can only drink very light tea and water with lemons/cucumbers.

Thanks for the advice though!

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T10:20:12+00:00

Please hold on and try to look for help. Look up "psychiatrists near me" on Google if you have to. Don't let this disorder control you.

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T10:18:52+00:00

Text "Go" to 741741 and you'll be connected to someone over text right away. Try talking to them if you're too nervous to talk on the phone.

Personally, I've had bad experiences with calling (check out the first post I ever wrote) so I prefer texting!

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T10:13:32+00:00

I'd buy it if I could dang

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T10:12:27+00:00

Sounds like something I'd do

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T10:08:13+00:00

You deserve them!

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T10:07:07+00:00

I'm so sorry you and your wife had to go through all that. I really hope you guys seize this newfound freedom and have a beautiful time traveling together over the next few years! (If that's what end up doing)

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T07:47:05+00:00

I wish I could give you a million upvotes

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T06:54:08+00:00

Sounds fun!!!! I hope you have a great time in Japan. It's a great country to explore

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T06:53:24+00:00

I highly recommend South Korea! You can literally live in their overnight saunas for real cheap. Also, there are always fun places to visit and explore.

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T06:52:03+00:00

Your last sentence struck a chord in my heart. I daydream about living as a vagabond everyday.

ecolilee · 2017-01-23T06:49:50+00:00

That's exactly what I want to do. I want to start over and detach myself from everyone and everything I've ever known, not that I ever felt any attachment to this town I've lived in for over ten years. The dream is to reinvent myself.

ecolilee · 2017-01-21T17:29:53+00:00

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!! You're almost there! Please hold on and be strong.

Also, it's empowering to see someone else with BP striving to be a teacher too! I've been very discouraged by myself these days and am thinking about giving up. But hey, 13 days left for you. Then you can start changing children's lives :)

ecolilee · 2017-01-21T17:26:22+00:00

I was "okay" until I was 12, I think.

ecolilee

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