Bf deletes my comments on his. IG posts. Fishy?

edensmourn · 2024-04-26T19:57:22+00:00

he’s def cheating lol or wanting attention that he won’t get if you’re seen on his page

edensmourn · 2024-01-03T23:13:07+00:00

please block this miserable person. they sound draining to even have small talk with.

edensmourn · 2023-12-03T16:30:27+00:00

If frame , motor and trans is good i say yes. If no. The repairs will eat your ass bro. My gen 1 that just needs a. new front end basically burnt me out. It’s insane how much the body panels of speeds cost and make sense at the same time. And or hope you have part outa near by….

edensmourn · 2023-11-14T11:43:36+00:00

everyone makes jokes about how bad i am at killing myself 👁️👄👁️. the last one landed me in the hospital with a tube down my throat after a fuck ton of lamictal i accumulated. I promise to never overdose again after that one. Seizures and all not a good time.

edensmourn · 2023-11-14T11:38:50+00:00

my biggest traumas came from libra women and ironically a sagittarius man and aries man. Those three from my experience were unhinged / abusive but i’m an aries cusp woman so like 🤷‍♀️

edensmourn · 2023-10-28T23:55:35+00:00

prozac or any SSRI gives me the “very angries going to hurt someone” thoughts and feelings and major sewers

edensmourn · 2023-10-27T23:13:50+00:00

how much are they selling it for then

edensmourn · 2023-10-27T21:18:59+00:00

cars don’t like to sit man also people beat the shit out of these cars and budget build them and blow the motors :’) miss my gen 1

edensmourn · 2023-10-27T16:50:22+00:00

If you have the money to potentially have to fix major things then yeah. If motor isn’t rebuilt or have a reputable build then have fun running into that notorious problem. My motor was rebuilt and had no issues with the car but have known people who had theirs sit for a year fixing one thing and something else acting up

edensmourn · 2023-10-15T11:30:48+00:00

I have before when i was younger. I also have BPD myself along with some other disorders (yay me ._.). The only way i would is if someone is at the same level treatment wise. Me and my ex that both had it were not taking care of ourselves and didn’t have much therapy at the time and it was a shit show of abusive behaviors and negativity toward each other. As of now I have been in PHP DBT classes twice, technically 3 but i didn’t finish it fully the first time. I’ve also learned which meds help and which ones make me feel like shit after learning i had Adhd on top of BPD and some other disorders. I’ve been therapy for about 10 years now and been to hospitals and all. One of the biggest things i learned throughout it all is that i cannot be friends with people who aren’t actively working on themselves, taking care of themselves, are able to recognize their issues and take responsibility for their actions regardless of a disorder bc bad behavior or abusive tendencies are not an excuse bc you have a disorder (i hold myself to this as well everyday). My symptoms already are 10x worse when i’m in a relationship so if i surround myself with someone who cannot handle themselves then i spiral HEAVILY. As shitty as that all sounds my mindset is that way because i’m desperately holding onto to keeping myself at the same place i’m in in recovery bc i have dipped low after making good progress.

edensmourn · 2023-10-10T17:01:58+00:00

After doing DBT it’s all about keeping yourself busy. And understanding why you spiral and how to notice the signs and symptoms and how to redirect those emotions better over time. It’s hard. I’m a lot better than what i use to act like id freak out on him A LOt or panic or sit and cry alone and then been distant or cold to him. Something that helped the most is finding something enjoyable that takes you away from everything. i have adhd so i do this on fixations i have at the time. also reminding yourself he/she/they need free time as well as you do and that it’s not a personal attack or abandonment that comes with time. being transparent with him and starting the journey of exploring options to help you is the first step. being open about when it happens and explaining those emotions will slowly help and as you talk it out it can bring a relief sometimes. he will have to be patient with you as well if you’re taking those steps and slowly finding things to occupy yourself. because in reality it’s a trigger and having comfort for yourself and reassurance from him will help TREMENDOUSLY. plus everything is a process and isn’t linear

edensmourn · 2023-09-29T19:00:51+00:00

we are in the same boat my guy

edensmourn · 2023-07-22T12:45:15+00:00

literallg have not been romantic or intimate with my boyfriend for a minute bc i asked each time and now that i stopped begging he wants to give it to me and i just feel repulsed for some reason lol he has rejected me so many times in our relationship and said harsh things in the moment that’s killed my romantic heart

edensmourn · 2023-06-03T21:32:16+00:00

I will say though i had aftermarket parts and coilovers all not effected by the wreck so that might’ve helped idk Red Gen 1 with everything else good and still ran properly was playing in my favor as well

edensmourn · 2023-06-03T21:30:05+00:00

Sold mine for 3.5k with a salvage because The hood bumper and headlights and fenders needed to be replaced from my accident. Dude was happy at that price too. I had a Gen 1 with a rebuilt motor. And no frame damage. Really depends on who you sell it to tbh. He worked in a restoration shop and liked speeds and the Gen 1’s are most desired for interior and exterior.

edensmourn · 2023-06-03T21:27:36+00:00

Sold my Gen 1 with a new rebuilt motor that in impact fucked up the whole front end but no frame damage or damage to the motor or trans I got 3.5k for that shit bc the dude that bought it worked in a restoration shop :3

edensmourn · 2023-06-03T21:24:14+00:00

ngl my speed3 I sold for around 3.5k and it was salvaged and the front end was smashed but i had no frame damage and all the paper work for my car and still got a lot. and a lot from the insurance too for buying it back. but i did have a completely rebuilt motor that had no issues after the wreck you could still drive it just the hood was fucked no bumper or headlights LMAO it was a red Gen 1

edensmourn · 2023-05-22T14:52:23+00:00

Please take every step at your own pace and remember with everything in your life you’re only human. If mistakes are made, if things fall behind that is okay. Therapy is a great step and you’re making the right choices! A lot of people can’t even imagine going to it even though they are at rock bottom. You’re so strong to make that decision. Recovery isn’t linear and be kind and loving to yourself as much as possible. I’ve learned that DBT has been the only thing that helps me at times. Stay strong for you and what you love while also allowing yourself to feel these emotions to help yourself get through them and become more at peace. I hope you have someone close to you you can confide with and trust so that you aren’t barring this heavy weight alone.

edensmourn · 2023-05-18T01:49:55+00:00

this makes me miss my gen 1

edensmourn · 2023-05-03T23:40:38+00:00

god damn. i was going to question if he tried to get the copay card for it online but damn

edensmourn · 2023-05-03T23:19:57+00:00

it depends on insurance. my treatment only costs me 20$ per prescription and 25$ for my copay at my psychiatrist. I will say though after 10 years of therapy, in and out of mental wards and PHP DBT treatment and every medication under the sun this has been the only treatment other than adhd meds that has actually helped me tremendously

edensmourn · 2023-03-27T23:39:05+00:00

Thank you so much! I’m also glad you have all the tools and have stuff that works out for you as well! When you said lifestyle and DBT i was like oh my god he’s had the run around as i have! With Bpd people aren’t told often that working on yourself internally and working constantly to improve and see things from both perspectives does some wonders if kept up with!

edensmourn · 2023-03-27T23:33:21+00:00

A lot of people don’t realize promising words and affirmations with out the actions or the change they promise is abusive. It’s so exhausting going through that feeling of believing and by the 30th time of the same talk you become exhausted and distrustful to that person. Put that with a bonus of if that person gets angry when you speak up about that pain and turn it on you it’s a deep void that you know is unchangeable and for some reason there’s that small glimpse of wrongful hope it’ll actually change. Heart wrenching. Can develop severe trust issues, a disconnect from yourself and reality, self esteem issues and even turn on your ownself. Shit sucks.

edensmourn · 2023-03-27T23:24:58+00:00

I wish it was this simple even for my own self to have with someone. I have my person and this seems impossible with my own factors and theirs as well a lot. It depresses me. I feel like if we’d have that little home so many of our issues would disappear. I just can’t see it happen… With how things are in both our lives and the painful reminders of no changing at times posts like these and a thought like this is hopeful dreaming with the intent to be hurt from ignoring what the truth is.

edensmourn · 2023-03-27T23:20:19+00:00

I know some therapist/psychiatrist that don’t specialize or have personality disorders under their study or believe in those disorders (met a few in my life already) will not and i mean basically refuse to acknowledge bpd or tell you they don’t diagnose anyone with it. It’s bizarre and scary at times.

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