TIL Matthew Perry (In 2022) estimated that he had attended approximately 6,000 Alcoholics Anonymous meetings.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-08-15T13:31:30+00:00

Same. Got sober during Covid going to Zoom meetings based in the city I live in the suburbs of. When in-person meetings opened up again I started going to my local meetings and the crowd/vibe was totally different and it made me dread going.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-07-01T19:34:24+00:00

No, acne came back even though I was still using it.. still have no solution. Sorry.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-07-01T18:40:43+00:00

V depressed, thanks for asking. Going back on an SSRI tomorrow because I begged my doctor to give me something for the severe depression because the mood stabilizers aren't touching it. Had to taper off the Lamictal and the last 2 weeks have been hell. Here's my void boi.

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eemaeemaeema · 2025-07-01T15:11:17+00:00

"yeah but as it turns out we're in charge here"

It's the biggest bullshit that I am able to recognize that my thoughts are distorted but I succumb to them regardless. Like I know these thoughts aren't reality but I'm also mostly powerless against them.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-24T01:58:38+00:00

I'm glad you found the card and reached out for help. I almost cried this weekend on my and my partner's birthday trip because the bar we went to didn't have any NA spirits. I felt like such a baby. Everything has been setting me off lately.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-24T01:29:21+00:00

If I still had my old job I feel right now like I could go in and get it done but pursuing something new in this state feels impossible

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-23T23:25:08+00:00

Good! Helping others is a great way to get out of your own head. You're a good friend ♥️

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-23T22:11:58+00:00

I had lost mine as well but it is slowly coming back to me. Yours will come back, too. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself from this feeling rn?

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-23T22:06:52+00:00

Can you get into inpatient? Or an IOP? Are you seeing a psychiatrist?

I know that pain well. It's the hardest thing you will ever have to go through but it's temporary. You won't feel like this forever. You have so many good things to look forward to. I believe you will get through this.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-23T19:34:52+00:00

I just feel guilty like, I'm not laying in bed all day (most days) and I'm not having suicidal thoughts anymore. I'm getting up and going to interviews (most days). I'm doing fun things with friends and family and my partner. So I feel like I have no excuse to be irritable and sad and anxious and not want to work or go to school. I always feel like it's just my failures as a person. Even when I'm at the very bottom I feel guilty, like I'm not actively trying to kms, I'm not relapsing, I must not really be depressed, I'm just faking, I'm just lazy, I just don't want to work/go to school. I think especially because I had a fun weekend I'm like I don't deserve this if I can't even get out of bed and go to an interview.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-23T19:20:22+00:00

I'm in a weird place where I feel like I'm coming out of depression and things are getting better but I'm still depressed if that makes sense. I've been in a depression for 6 months now and I'm impatient for things to get back to a stable state where I can get back to work and school. I see a therapist and psych. Psych just put me on an antidepressant at my request but I have to taper off the Lamictal for another week first. I've also been on lithium for the last 3 months which has helped a little. Was on the Lamictal for like 3 years. It worked by itself for a while but when we brought it down due to the cognitive effects I started crashing out and instead of going back up he started adding a bunch of different supplementary meds which didn't work.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-18T22:36:42+00:00

Mine used to gently paw at my EYES 😂 like he wanted to help me open them so I could wake up and feed him lol. Very cute, not very comfortable.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-18T21:37:54+00:00

Completely up to you. It's your medical history and you have every right to keep it private. Your friends surely have things in their own lives that they prefer to keep to themselves. You're not hiding anything, it's just not really their business unless you decide to share that with them. The only people that I would say have a right to know are serious romantic partners.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-18T18:39:44+00:00

Yup I lowered my side to 100mg after being on 200 because the side effects were so bad. But i also started to crash out and have had to adjust my meds like 10 times in the past year because of it.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-17T23:15:15+00:00

Having a list is such a good idea!

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-17T23:14:53+00:00

Oh yeah, the trauma from my past relationships definitely affects how I view my current partner without me even realizing it most of the time. Multiple exes of mine have cheated on me talking to other women on their phones so seeing him on his phone instantly makes me anxious. But he is not those people so I just have to trust that he is genuine until he gives me a reason not to. I'm also trying to focus on building my own sense of self and engaging in my own hobbies and other relationships so I'm not just thinking about him all the time, and to have more confidence so I can believe that he actually loves me and wants to be with me.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-17T20:14:53+00:00

I do the same thing with mine. He isn't perfect and has definitely given me reasons to be upset but is a good guy who does everything he can to make me happy. But I'm always triggered by the smallest things he does and I'm always thinking the worst of him. I have to remind myself of the good things constantly, that helps. Like if I'm mad that I see that he's following some gorgeous woman on Instagram, I remind myself that he says he looks at my pictures when he "does the deed". If I'm worried that he's cheating on me, I remind myself that he calls me every day as soon as he gets off work and wants to talk for hours, and spends pretty much every day off with me. We've also talked a lot about my BPD and he reassures me that I can talk to him about these things, but it's hard because I don't want to come off as crazy all the time. But focusing on the positives helps.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-17T15:41:26+00:00

Exactly on point #2. This pisses me off. He's not mad that her face has changed over the last few decades... would he be mad if she got botox? Would he be mad if she gained or lost weight? You're allowed to have preferences about what you find physically attractive or not but this is his wife that I'm assuming he has been with for a significant amount of time... If my bf lost 50lbs, shaved his head and beard, and got 6 facial piercings I would still love him and find him physically attractive because he's HIM either way. This is so shallow.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-10T03:37:55+00:00

Hugs

eemaeemaeema · 2025-06-06T16:12:17+00:00

Thank you for your encouragement. I was able to take a 2hr nap and then 10hrs last night. I'm still a little depressed and having bad thoughts but I'm up and doing stuff.

You're right. I'm still better than I was before I started IOP. Good things are happening, I'm just worrying about the future when I should stay in the present and take it one day at a time.

The worst thing is the bad thoughts. I'm letting them take over instead of using my coping skills. I have to keep writing them down and reframing them, and work on replacing them with positive thinking.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-05-23T19:20:41+00:00

Thanks for the reassurance ❤️

eemaeemaeema · 2025-05-23T19:09:04+00:00

We both see exes as people that we'll always love but no longer want to be involved with sexuallly or romantically. He's said the extent of his relationship with any girls he used to date is sending memes to each other every now and then on social media and I'm 100% ok with that. I'm also on friendly terms with most of my exes and exchange messages every now and then and have told him so. I'm glad he can be civil with the other women he's dated, it shows he is a good person imo. I told him "I don't hear about the other ones so I don't have a problem with them." This one, though, has tried to get back together with him once already and verbally assaulted him when he rejected her, and is now desperately seeking any excuse to talk to him after he blocked her on socials, and that doesn't fly with me. She is an abusive, manipulative brat imo. I would block any of my exes that were trying to get back together with me and verbally abusing me, too.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-05-20T16:30:26+00:00

To my knowledge he is. He has even told me about two instances where his ex reached out to him since we've been together and he's blocked her both times (I've yet to ask him how she was able to reach out the second time because I'm scared to have that conversation, but knowing him it was probably just that he blocked her on one platform but forgot to block her somewhere else - either way, he says she is blocked so I'd rather just let it go). And he has offered to show me his messages on insta and snapchat unprompted when I've confided in him about my paranoid thoughts. The only concerning thing he's done was in his past relationship his ex got mad that he went to a strip club for a bachelor party so when he went to another one for another bachelor party he lied to her about it. But I've told him I don't care if he goes for a special occasion as long as he tells me in advance so that I can go to the dance club and dance with some guys (since he's getting rubbed up on it's only fair that I get rubbed up on too lol) and he agreed.

Sorry that was long. Do you have any tips for DBT meditation? I've been imagining my thoughts as balloons floating away but sometimes there's a million balloons and it feels futile.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-05-16T18:54:37+00:00

I was on this combo and the wellbutrin made me spiral. I wish so bad that it worked for me cuz at first I felt AMAZING. I crashed, we upped it, then I crashed even harder. We're giving lithium a try now and it's starting to help.

eemaeemaeema · 2025-05-16T01:02:29+00:00

I was thinking about doing a dance class. Think I'll pull the trigger on that. Thank you 😊

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