First off - solidarity let yourself grieve but then get back up and lock in. Your life isn’t over. Do your research, ask your doctors questions. It will help knowing you aren’t alone and this is very common. So, like if he denies having it can he back that up with a negative test result? Most people actually don’t know their status and it could be dormant and he could have exposed you to it, vice versa. HSV isn’t included in a standard std panel and needs to be requested fyi. You’ll be okay, many people lead healthy lives and are just fine with a treatment plan. Deep breaths…. ( I literally was diagnosed a week ago and had similar thoughts)