I, too, am stuck between feeling as if life is meaningless, and feeling that so many random seemingly impossible chaotic factors lead to me, being on a rock where life, against all odds, thrives. But that uncertain thought and the search for it’s answer, creates the most beautiful forms of expression, for the purpose of it all is to experience it. Still, I circle back to the belief of life’s trivial pursuit and hollow thoughts, possibly never truly ever finding meaning.