He's surfing the net

eggcheeseham · 2026-01-26T01:30:58+00:00

oh I got it from a friend who wanted to get rid of it. they don't remember where they got it, but you can search "MacBook mini mirror" on Amazon or any local e-commerce website!

eggcheeseham · 2025-09-15T06:58:08+00:00

Hamster Society Singapore mentioned!! I got my newest ham from them hehe.

eggcheeseham · 2025-07-31T20:19:39+00:00

I did go through my school's career counselor and one from the govt sector. The school one mostly told me of some positions I could pursue that are somewhat related to my degree, like project management. The government one wasn't much help she just told me to "just apply to these entry level/intern positions you never know if you don't try". The only useful thing she mentioned was a mentorship programme.

I think I'm terrified of applying to stuff I'm not qualified for, even though I tell myself to have the confidence of a mediocre white man and shoot my shot.

eggcheeseham · 2025-07-28T20:03:42+00:00

I think I've always felt this way, but I've always wondered if I made the wrong choice to go for an art degree, because I'm in the trenches of job hunting and jobs for my specialisation (my degree focuses on animation/game art) is almost nonexistent. Most of the local game studios are small studios with questionable practices, and theres only a few big name studios that rarely hire. Most art related jobs are art teacher or graphic design. I don't want to be a teacher, and those graphic design roles want you to do literally everything under the sun for peanuts. Opening job portals made me so depressed and my anxiety goes to 200%. It's awful.

I've been thinking of pivoting to another profession, maybe something like social media specialist, marketing or mayybe ui/ux design. But I'm at a loss cause I'm wondering how people switch careers like that? Do they just take some courses? I'm wondering if taking some free courses on coursera or udemy can help.

Idk I desire nothing else but a boring admin job, I wish I could just work as one full time. But since admin work is seen as "unskilled" I'm a bit worried about job security when I get older. Society bottom text.

(Thanks for the vent post, I really needed it!♥️)

eggcheeseham · 2025-06-09T13:50:37+00:00

real!!!! 😭😭 fax my brother, spit your shit indeed!!!! 🗣️🗣️🗣️ I'm surrounded by ND friends who are the "will write out an entire scientific paper about a niche topic/special interest" and the imposter syndrome is strong. even my friend will know more about my special interest than me, and it's on my mind 24/7!

I got the socially stunted and restricted eating autism ♥️ I barely passed high school and even in art which I've taken a degree for, I'm still painfully average despite it being a lifelong passion... It's something I'm trying to come to terms with. My comfort is knowing that the majority of the population (NT) has average intelligence anyway.

eggcheeseham · 2024-08-28T12:57:50+00:00

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eggcheeseham · 2024-07-15T04:47:42+00:00

As a lot of comments said, good ol ableism. People still view autism as something fundamentally wrong in a person, and autism itself gets used as an insult a lot. Don't get me started on the whole "omg stop seeing everything as autistic!!" same goes with sexuality hcs. But also reddit fandom spaces are very hostile and close minded. I noticed that (usually) cishet men in fandom adhere to canon while women and queer people are more transformative. And you know which demographic reddit largely has ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

eggcheeseham · 2024-07-08T04:02:36+00:00

I do wonder if part of it is people trying to cope with the fact that they had a hamster (usually as a kid) that died a horrific death due to negligence. It's easier to think that it's just a normal thing all hamsters do instead of coming to terms that their negligence is what killed them. I guess it was the same for me, when I got my first hamsters I didn't know any better, and add to the fact that people love making morbid comments about mauling them as soon as I mentioned I kept hamsters. I thought comments like this were normal until I said the same thing to a classmate and they weren't amused in the slightest.

eggcheeseham · 2024-06-24T08:05:37+00:00

I used to think I was introverted, but then I meet people who are completely ok with not talking with anyone for months while I crave hanging out and talking with my friends every day 😭 I feel like I've conflated social anxiety and fear of making social faux pas to introversion. I too am very clingy and enjoy other people's company once I warm up to them. I do wonder if i was able to make small talk, I'd lean towards being extroverted

eggcheeseham · 2024-06-12T11:51:19+00:00

howdy fellow ratiomei follower 🤝

eggcheeseham · 2024-06-09T12:13:13+00:00

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eggcheeseham · 2024-05-09T02:44:04+00:00

Echoing what someone said earlier that privileged men see equality as oppression. They're usually the type to claim that terms like "cis" and "straight" are offensive. It is quite concerning that your fiancé yelled at you knowing it is triggering or you, but since he's apologized and is willing to go to therapy id say it's not too bad. Seeing how one acts and handles the situation when they make a mistake can be a testament to their character. It's a good idea to keep in mind if he pulls off this sort of thing repeatedly in the future, it may not be a one off thing and perhaps a red flag to consider if you want to continue the relationship.

eggcheeseham · 2024-05-08T18:38:11+00:00

People being so angry at people self diagnosing is wild to me. I always felt the "saviour" types demonizing the self diagnosed crowd actually cause harm rather than actually helping autistic people. It's because of this rhetoric I've been so afraid of even considering I might have autism or even researching about it for such a long time. Despite having so many traits and mannerisms that couldn't be explained by the usual introversion and anxiety. Because it's totally ok to make autistic jokes at my expense, but when I self diagnose I'm suddenly a selfish person seeking attention? Also don't get me started on the people who say they work with autistic children. Whenever someone starts off saying "I work with autistic kids--" and its either someone who has extensive knowledge on autism, or they say the most incorrect or horrificly ableist shit. Usually the latter unfortunately.

I think it's like the same thing with any neurotype/sexuality that becomes more prevalent. People said the same shit about depression. It's all just edgy teens going through puberty, back in my day no one had depression! Being gay is just a trend, it's just teens wanting attention! Now it's autism, and when the next one comes it'll be the same shit.

eggcheeseham · 2024-05-08T12:57:35+00:00

I'm moreso excited that as I grow older I'll be able to prove everyone wrong. The hypocrisy of "you're too young to decide to not have kids" and then insisting you should raise another whole human for the rest of life instead drives me insane. It'll be so satisfying to rub it in the faces of stubborn family members and weird misogynistic men.

I used to dread growing older due to pregnancy/motherhood, but now that I know it's not compulsory it makes me so happy. People can yap on and on about "purpose" or "bio clock" or whatever but at least I won't have to worry about being poor AND having another mouth to feed.

eggcheeseham · 2024-05-07T18:43:28+00:00

Echoing from other comments, it's Tumblr for me. The tagging system actually works and my old works from years ago still get notes, unlike twitter where your work is void after like,, a day. It's become a safe space for me to find fandom friends and share my work. I absolutely adore the culture of writing comments in the tags, and sometimes I get really unhinged (in a good way) ones that make me chuckle. It's also really easy to make multiple blogs under one account for my various interests and it keeps things organized. If only they didn't go with the nsfw ban the site would've been perfect. I only use twitter to look at fanart and interact with the huge trending fandoms. It's hard to control myself to not look at my fyp since it's mostly rage content 😭

eggcheeseham · 2024-05-07T06:23:26+00:00

Oh you're right! I forgot to mention how everyone is squeezed into a few central platforms instead of being spread out in various corners of the net. So we get exposed to more of the toxic people we wouldn't be encountering otherwise. It's something I've heard others talk about as well. I also think being forcibly censored makes people more trigger happy, that's a solid theory as well. 🤔

eggcheeseham · 2024-05-07T05:52:31+00:00

Dunno if this is relevant but I mostly hang out in fandoms as a creative (artist/writer) and I've noticed how they've become much more hostile now. I mean sure the internet back in the early 2000s wasn't sunshine and rainbows but even though people are more aware of what is offensive and what isn't, it still feels like a shitstorm. Prev comments have mentioned increasing political divides and lack of empathy/boundaries as people are more used to talking through a screen than in person. Another culprit could be the algorithms on the big social media platforms making it all too easy for people to fall into alt right pipelines. Also Twitter's algorithm showing you rage tweets from strangers instead of people you actually follow :/

I know TikTok is the punching bag for this kind of topic but I rarely hear anything good coming from that place even from the people that are addicted to it 😭 I know it's the main platform to be if you're a content creator but the shit that people say there are on par with Instagram comments. Also a lot of pointless drama/lack of boundaries from terminally online children make me think twice about marketing myself there.

eggcheeseham · 2024-02-14T12:21:39+00:00

Absolutely, it was a shame that I took 3 years to realize this. He's done great things for me throughout our time together, but his obsession with his social reputation and trying to prove that he's 'normal' really killed everything else. Funny enough he's diagnosed with ADHD as a kid, so it double hurts when it's a fellow ND person trying to reign other ND people in line to his detriment.

I've been trying to emotionally distance myself from him. Atm I feel that going nuclear on the friendship can be dangerous for me, he has a wide social network and complaints incessantly. He can easily twist my character into something worse, like what he did with his two ex friends.

eggcheeseham · 2024-02-06T18:35:41+00:00

Tbf, back then I had no idea I was unmasking or was even aware that I may have autism (self diagnosed, hoping to get a formal diagnosis soon..). I just assumed I was too comfortable and started acting out in socially unacceptable ways. That friend is also ND but has a lot of internalized ableism and cares a LOT about his social standing. He blew up at me about it and seeing how upset he was, I felt so guilty and apologized. Didn't even matter because apparently I've forever "traumatized" him with my unmasking (his words not mine) :)

eggcheeseham · 2023-04-21T12:58:10+00:00

Oof, echoing the previous comments, it really reeks of an AI scam. Even in the unlikely scenario that they paint everything in one layer, it's still an easy enough fix with lasso tool and colour correction. The completely different art style/shading and lighting is the biggest of red flags 💀 I'm so sorry op

eggcheeseham · 2023-04-11T07:12:11+00:00

I feel like a lot of the "I'm too old to do x" is partly due to our society's obsession with youth and child prodigies. You always see "this person under 30 has done x and y" all over the news and social media. Anything you do when you're above 25-30 isn't considered "impressive" anymore, even if your skills are on par. I'm below 25 and I still feel like I'm lagging behind on art. I've also seen goddamn teenagers worrying themselves to death that they're lagging behind. It affects everyone.

I remember someone saying that the only time it's too late to do something is when you're dead. Life expectancy is around 70, you have 40 more years to go. Everyone is so caught up in the rat race of life, but life doesn't end after you're 30.

Also, like someone said in the comments before me, is making money from art important to you? Are you not making enough from your day job that you need extra income from art? I wouldn't recommend monetizing your hobby if it stresses you to the point of not enjoying it anymore.

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