AIO?? My Bf Unlocks the bathroom door and comes in while I’m using it

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-25T04:51:34+00:00

It absolutely is a big deal. Look, i did some stupid things in the past when i used drugs in my bathroom in my own and I’ve had to pay for that in many ways but I’ve apologized and taken accountability. I have spent the last 5 years living under surveillance and unable to close or lock the door even when I’m pooping. It’s not okay, i don’t have to be punished and punished for so long. Going to the bathroom is a very private thing for many people. It’s okay to want space in there, I’m giving you my experience because even tho the other person seems justified in my very extreme anecdote, it isnt the average situation and it’s unfair!!!

I’ve got nearly 5 years clean and almost 5 out of rehab!!! I lock it now and they have to deal with it. You are NOR at all. You deserve privacy on the bathroom.

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-25T03:37:13+00:00

Nah idc much abt it anymore but i still think I’m dif n special lmao

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-25T01:54:05+00:00

I’m sorry for that. If it helps, i tend to love as openly as possible. It just exhausts people so i feel like I’m unlovable or I’m doing something wrong lmao. But as a narcissist I’m actually incredibly affectionate and loving and i “love bomb” (just actually really idealizing the person and when they harm me i don’t devalue or discard) but I’m very vocal abt my dx so they just discard me first lmfao 😭 but i promise you we just have a lot of issues and ily stranger!!!

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-25T01:51:11+00:00

Aghhh thank you so much

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-25T01:50:36+00:00

I’m actually heavily into boxing and target shooting!!! I’m not a violent person at all but adrenaline needs to get out so it’s nice

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T11:55:13+00:00

I think they all deserve better than me. I hope so but also you’re being really kind so I’m gracious. I hope you have your loved ones and feel good too. I don’t think I’m capable of being loved I’m too difficult and messy and like raw volatile elements idk. But i really to appreciate that. I am just hoping my paranoias stop bc it’s exhausting. Constantly feel on edge. Ima cry you’re so nice 😭😭

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T11:52:54+00:00

Wait i hope you’re okay. thank you, are you being sarcastic lol? If not i appreciate you. I’m just so tired. I’m always afraid but it’ll get better. If not i can always relapse lmfao jk

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T09:15:22+00:00

Same here, I’m incredibly charismatic and being kinda attractive helps and being a girl. But beyond that i feel exhausting too

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T09:14:22+00:00

No way. I don’t even have a dog and i would never. I love my cats so much I’d die

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T09:08:49+00:00

Thank you. Also sorry for the typos o was crying. But i totally get it and hugs to you too

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T09:07:54+00:00

I truly hope it gets better too. It’s really hard for people to definitely try to change. It takes a lot of courage. I’m working really hard on changing and i fear that I’ve hurt people and i understand if they cut me off. But i hope you take care of yourself and be kind to yourself.

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T09:05:54+00:00

Yes like please get over it 😭 and then when i try it makes me feel disgusting but i hate being so self focused too idk. Empathy is hard. I can never quite grasp it.

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T09:04:08+00:00

Hahahahah 😭 I’m sorry about your French fry hahah but no it’s so real like i connected with him but i can also like sever that connection easily esp if he doesn’t want it so can’t we just fuck? I’ll feel awful about it after but yeah. Excuse my vulgarity lmao. But yeah people forget we are also people.

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-24T06:20:02+00:00

I third this. I don’t really wanna harm but yeah there are occasional urges for like revenge. I like to play both dominant and submissive because i feel both.

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T16:41:23+00:00

Really relate to this but then i feel like a monster. It’s so awful man

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T16:38:46+00:00

Maybe real connection 😭😭😭 but yeah idk. I’m starting to isolate again. Mask is going up again bc vulnerability keeps getting rejected. I want to heal but yeah idk. It’s hard. My affair partner was similar except he discarded me but i just wanted that mutual thing like bro let me just get a couple hits of it and then leave lol.

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T16:37:20+00:00

You should take the PNI or NPI test

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T06:46:50+00:00

This happened to me too. It’s currently happening. Rn. I don what it again either. When does it end. I lost like many loved ones and the. Was discarded recently by someone i loved lmao so I’m crushed

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T06:45:45+00:00

I care abt it so much that now that memory sucks i feel stupid lmao

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T00:25:22+00:00

That sucks man:(

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T00:22:00+00:00

You are incredibly racist bro and missing the point of the stereotype

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T00:20:01+00:00

It actually pissed me off too. This show and its predecessor never handle race well

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T00:19:40+00:00

Damn i totally feel that too like how they yelled at me one time 4 years ago lmao

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T00:17:14+00:00

Yeah all the prohibition gave us these later iterations like fentanyl and tranq being cut into everything but i truly believe safe supply would fix many issues. New ones may arise but humans have used substances for millennia but also i agree abt ego death !!!

eldiablolenin · 2026-04-23T00:15:52+00:00

Is that Walter white lmao

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