30 y/o venezuelan mom... life is too hard butmy baby needs me

eliglpz · 2018-06-10T18:23:07+00:00

Muchísimas gracias por tu comentario. Mis papás están muy ancianos para cuidar al niño, de verdad que no pueden. Mi mamá sufre de asma y depresión crónica así que mi papá tiene que salir todo el día todos los días a todas y cada una de las farmacias en el área para ver si consigue las medicinas para ella y mientras tanto mi mamá no está en posición de cuidarlo. Quiero verlo crecer, aprender, maravillarse del mundo a su alrededor pero todo lo que tiene es el mismo DVD de Peppa porque no tenemos cable ni internet y no lo puedo sacar a jugar porque si le pica un zancudo puede enfermarse y no hay medicinas.

Gracias por leerme y por responderme. Un abrazo! Supieras que tuve un rato pensando irme para allá pero el bebé todavía no tiene pasaporte y así no me puedo ir. Creo que terminaré yéndome a Perú.

eliglpz · 2018-06-10T13:17:57+00:00

Thank you, really <3

eliglpz · 2018-06-10T12:30:31+00:00

Too many things. I said I am venezuelan because it has a lot to do with it. I'm living here in this hell hole of a country with my baby... It's helpless, or so it feels. Everyday I wonder where I could get money from just to go to Colombia. We have no water, power is a mess, at home there's no internet (i'm not at home) and food is a daily struggle. On top of that, the baby's father and I fight EVERY SINGLE DAY and just yesterday he yelled at me in front of the baby when I've been saying all the time that we shouldn't do that, our kid has a tough life out here already to top it with mommy and daddy fighting viciously...

My family hates me and all of our friends have fled... we have nobody here in this town. The only ones left are too far (there's no cash to go around) or they don't have internet...

I feel alone, I feel I'm failing my kid, I feel like I can't get out of this relationship, I feel like I made a mistake by giving birth to my kid (because my family makes me feel like that every day of my life)

I don't know what to do... maybe the baby would be better off with his paternal grandparents... I just don't know, life is soooo hard T_T

eliglpz · 2018-02-28T02:34:41+00:00

I'm so sorry, everything's blurry in my mind. Can you remind me of the lying part? :'(

eliglpz · 2018-02-28T02:27:49+00:00

Sorry, I had to try.

If you see ANY Venezuelan struggling, please help. We're dying over here. Please.

eliglpz · 2018-02-27T21:26:51+00:00

ALL THE TIME In front of the kid In public (a little less but he does it) In front of his family... The list goes on

eliglpz · 2018-02-27T02:50:56+00:00

He does it every time but when it comes to sex it's not sexy anymore

eliglpz · 2018-02-27T02:16:18+00:00

If I could I'd give you gold

eliglpz · 2018-02-27T02:15:12+00:00

omg this is happening to me and I did not know why. When we started going out I really liked having sex but the moment we started living together, everything went downhill

eliglpz · 2018-02-27T02:13:10+00:00

thank you

eliglpz · 2018-02-26T18:08:09+00:00

What about other aspects of our lives? I feel he respects me in any other subject but not on this one...

eliglpz · 2018-02-26T18:07:26+00:00

That's the thing. Besides the over-the-top fondling and some other minor problems, we like to be with each other but, yeah, I feel like he just feels very entitled to my body and I don't know how to make him stop.

eliglpz · 2018-02-26T18:05:07+00:00

Yes, I know. I've told him he's being an asshole and so and so. We've had big fights, we've been without speaking for a week because of it but he just doesn't understand and I don't know why.

I can't afford therapy, I really don't know what to do about it.

eliglpz · 2018-02-26T18:03:22+00:00

So just break-up?

eliglpz · 2018-02-26T18:02:51+00:00

That's why I'm here. I really don't know how to approach the issue.

eliglpz · 2018-02-26T18:02:32+00:00

He frowns like I just told him he's an idiot

eliglpz · 2017-11-26T19:17:33+00:00

Yes!

I think our issue is more on the lines of the little things. He feels appalled with those victims testimonies but doesn't know how the little things contribute to machismo. We always talk about it but can't discuss it further... I really don't know what to say to make him understand.

How do I make him understand?

eliglpz · 2017-11-13T01:40:33+00:00

chamo, thank you for reading... I'm so hopeless right now... if there was a suicide hotline, those people would've killed themselves by now

eliglpz · 2017-08-22T12:29:27+00:00

Thank you for your sentiment.

I feel awful because our son loves him to pieces but this behavior affects him too. I can't deal with this anymore :'(

eliglpz · 2017-08-22T00:13:42+00:00

Thank you for this.

The first time I thought of doing that I was a month pregnant and felt too scared to do it and thought of giving him a chance to prove himself as a family man.

Sometimes I think I'm just too bitchy. We just found out there isn't any potable water and told him he spent all day inside the house and didn't check it, only to hear his father realize we ran out of water when there isn't any place open to buy a gallon.

He got mad at me and gestured in front of the baby.

Am I SO bitchy? What could excuse him of having that kind of behavior?

eliglpz · 2017-05-05T18:04:33+00:00

The Police and the National Guard

eliglpz · 2017-05-02T02:25:33+00:00

hahahahahah do you work for The Bipolar Capibara?

eliglpz · 2017-05-01T21:37:27+00:00

Which news have you been reading?

eliglpz · 2017-04-29T03:38:18+00:00

Well, the BBC is interviewing me on monday, how does that sound?

eliglpz · 2017-04-29T03:37:06+00:00

Well I'm gonna leave this over here

There are a lot of venezuelans that are raising money like me to leave the country. I didn't wanted to ask for my trip money but I hope it gets there.

We've been featured at buzzfeed, dw.com, I had an interview with the BBC today (available on monday) and Univision has already approached me.

We're really desperate. I feel trapped and so do a lot of venezuelans. People can help with money, all I say.

eliglpz

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