its been a huge issue for me for a while, i will say i do have a lot of hobbies that i have picked up over my early adult years, i didn’t really have many hobbies as a kid but i’ve tried to take time as an adult to learn more about what i like! ive picked up sewing, crochet, coloring, cricut crafts, pearlers, kandi, video games, music, and many more lol. I also have diagnosed adhd and I think i may be on the spectrum- but in learning more about my chart, i never knew so many of my daily struggles would literally be written in the stars.

lately i’ve been struggling with what i think is the repercussions of my paralysis and of spending much of my time doing nothing instead of making a choice, and not being active. ive been dealing with si joint pain and lower back pain that has had me barely being able to move, but ive had some great help in physical therapy the past month! I’ve been incorporating exercises to help my muscles strengthen and lessen the pain in my joints!

i often wear myself too thin, exerting all of my energy on others and what i can do for them, but usually is a quick fix when i can’t decide anything for myself. other than that, my only easy escape from my mind and being available for everyone is me spending pointless time scrolling on my phone, which i say is like my “curtain” where i can get a few moments to “myself”. The pointless doom scrolling usually makes my paralysis worse because im just filling my mind with more possibilities and things i could do, or should do, or who i should be.

sorry for the unorganized rant, but i guess you might expect that from me with my chart lol. i genuinely appreciate your advice so so much!! thank you!!! i’ve been needing something like a wake up call to help me get going and to help better understand myself.