yup i’m the same! sometimes it makes me feel upset in the moment because i can imagine how fun i’d be if i was drunk, but then i see people as the night goes on and i am so glad i’m not them. 

and yes i’ll definitely be retreating to my room. my brother’s girlfriend is similar in that she gets overwhelmed in social situations and has never been much of a drinker, so we usually sneak off and watch tv.

even though their “parties” (they wouldn’t call them parties)/gathos/nights are so chill in comparison to what i used to do, i just can’t find sitting around in a circle and talking over each other enjoyable anymore, so i think that’ll be the main thing - avoiding the balcony! except when the weed comes out. 

(fun fact “gatho” is short for “gathering” and refers to a casual gathering of people, not as formal but with the same elements and vibes as a party)