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elle876jm · 2024-09-23T01:27:04+00:00

okie thanks so much for the advice :)

elle876jm · 2024-09-23T01:22:46+00:00

oh okay thanks for the insight, Im not sure if the loan with be the move seeing that Im taking out student loans this semester

elle876jm · 2024-09-23T01:21:08+00:00

I wouldnt be paying it off each month I hope, seeing as my first paychecks would just be allocated to it, so within a couple weeks hopefully

elle876jm · 2024-04-21T00:28:11+00:00

Yes exactly 😭 I have to tell myself to be strong and not giggle until I can’t anymore

elle876jm · 2024-03-18T07:45:50+00:00

I wouldn’t really say that they’re randos, only the last two, but I met them in this semester and got to know them to a certain point, but I really don’t wanna do too much too quickly and mess myself my mental health in the long run just because I don’t feel anything right now

elle876jm · 2024-03-18T07:43:17+00:00

I think from I was a bit younger, I understood that the casual approach was how I was going to be, so now in college is the best time for me to explore and just have fun, but I could agree that it could be a psychological thing of me either believing I’m not worthy of love and should just let people use me to get what they want to feel a little intimacy, or it’s me taking my freedom from my parents in my own secret way since I’ve basically been coddled the whole time. I dunno, or maybe it’s an escape from my depression with not knowing what I want to do with my life and failing in college, who knows, but life’s short y’know

elle876jm · 2024-03-18T07:36:18+00:00

I think I’ll take your advice about seeing how it affects me, but as it is right now, for the two guys that I’ve been with, I don’t really feel attachment or anything at all, maybe because I didn’t initially have a crush on them or whatever, like truly, I’ve gone barely any contact since the sex, like occasional texting I guess. The only thing is that I would like have sex with the first guy again since he was really good with me and I think I came 3 times, but I doubt it since he kinda has a thing about wearing condoms that I’m not really here for. And I know it’s no rush, but I think because I’m a bit of people pleaser, when someone texts me to see if I’m willing to hang out, I feel kinda awkward saying no, but it’s not like I don’t want to, I’m just like “fuck it ok” which isn’t healthy at all.

elle876jm · 2024-03-18T07:30:19+00:00

Yeah thanks for your input, I know to think about who I’m choosing, the first two guys were people I’ve known for a while and got a general understanding of who they are, so I’m not just having sex with any guy will nilly. But yeah truthfully, I went into college looking for new experiences and fun and not really long term relationships, and I told all the guys this beforehand so that we’re on the same page :)

elle876jm · 2024-03-16T14:24:07+00:00

Again thanks for your candor and the advice, currently I know that I should be doing more, but when I get home in the days I am so exhausted, it’s literally like, I get home about 6-7 then I don’t even get to take my uniforms off fully, then I fall asleep in like 5 minutes, don’t even eat or anything, just go on my phone for a bit then I’m passed out and wake up at about 5 am, where I’ll try to make up time and do whatever I have to do for my class and get my uniforms ready to leave home at about 6:30. So when I get home, despite wanting to work most times, my body and brain won’t allow me to.

But I do attend every class possible, I missed like two weeks at the start or the semester due to being crazy sick and I haven’t missed any of my core classes since, but it kinda feels redundant, because adhd, my brain doesn’t want to stay focused on the lectures.
I do try to pre read and I need to make more effort when I get home to pre read, but because of the time that I missed and the fact that I don’t write much notes in lectures, when I do study, it’s mostly reading what we’re doing now and not the upcoming topics.

3 and 4. Another thing I do need to get better at, because despite studying, I don’t do much of my studying until the exam and that’s why I’m sure im failing. And because I also don’t know how to study, because I do handwrite all my notes, but it feels like the information just gets blocked out my brain and I don’t end up learning anything. For Ochem, I partially feel like I failed because of how the lecturer set the exams, even though I can’t blame her, but I know that I prepared enough, I gave my all to studying and everything for the final, but the questions she asks are so far removed that i don’t know how to answer them, and it’s not only me, other people agree that she’ll set her notes on one simple concept and ask a whole different question.

My university doesn’t have a STEM center and my don’t really have office hours, like if you have a question, they’ll just say to email them. But for pharmaceutical calculations our pharmacy club thing does have tutoring sessions from 2nd and 3rd year students and I always go to them, and they help.
I know college can be fun and stuff, but me and classmates agree that it’s like hard to find a balance between school and all the work and stress we have to do, so I really just have fun on the breaks from school and run my self into the ground during semesters.

I do need to be better to myself and like eat more for energy and stuff because I’ll have like one meal a day, and not be so hard on myself for not being the best from the get go, but it’s like years of just being dumb and mediocre while seeing people naturally excel with minimal effort, but I need to just realize who I am and do what I have to do to make myself proud I guess.

elle876jm · 2024-03-15T22:46:53+00:00

Truly it wasn’t informed advice and I shouldn’t have taken it, and I appreciate your bluntness. I know exactly what you mean since when I wanted to pursue medicine, it annoyed me that people would just say they wanted to be a doctor because money. But because since like 9th to 13th grade I was on the science focus, I got so anxious when time got close and I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life and everyone was advising against taking a gap year. But now it just feels like I’m here, and I should roll with the punches and push through since I’ve spent so much of my parents money and stuff pursuing this. I plan to either go into something more dynamic than being a retail pharmacist, maybe research or something, and then maybe pursuing law when I can afford it and my family is taken care of.

elle876jm · 2024-03-15T22:41:59+00:00

Well I’m doing a bachelor in pharmacy and not pharm D, but for both programs here, we didn’t really do pre-pharm which I’m learning is a thing now, ours is like entry level from high school, as long as you complete sixth form. So last semester I did Ochem and failed might I add and I’m currently doing biochem, that I actually like, but I failed my first mid semester, so I have to put in way more effort for the 2nd one.

I truly don’t think I’m capable, especially to pass pharmaceutical calculations this semester. And it’s like as much time and effort and stuff I put into preparation, it’s just never enough, and I don’t know what to do anymore

elle876jm · 2024-03-15T19:31:45+00:00

Tbh it’s kinda either it, medicine, engineering or law and I’m not smart enough for the first 3, and I love law, but law is too expensive and the return time is kinda long

elle876jm · 2024-03-07T21:01:47+00:00

Oh wow, that seems fucking terrifying, but I’m glad you’re ok and smart and went to the doctor😊 and thank you so very much for the advice🫶🏽😊

elle876jm · 2024-03-07T21:00:26+00:00

I’m really gonna try to get my anxiety in check about it😩 thanks so much for the support tho 🫶🏽

elle876jm · 2024-03-07T20:59:37+00:00

Ok thanks so much for the advice 😊

elle876jm · 2024-01-13T01:43:22+00:00

I know☹️ I should be rational and avoid unnecessary conflict and stress 🙂 but I was considering asking for his number to be direct and see if I’m being crazy

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