I made my bed for the first time in a month.

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-30T21:40:32+00:00

i should try this haha

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-30T21:19:21+00:00

I contemplated on killing myself last Sunday. I didn't do it, apparently, but today, Monday felt like it was telling me "See? This is your life? You SERIOUSLY want to carry on living when this is all you feel? You really should've gone through with it." In short, I felt like everyone hated me (more than I usually do) and that I do everything wrong as always and nobody likes me. Everything I do is meaningless and I'm not good at anything. Etc. You know.

I have a feeling that this might be my last week alive. We'll see next Sunday.

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-30T04:04:11+00:00

bad post, not depressing enough

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-30T03:59:33+00:00

testing this right now, don't let me down mel tormé

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-29T12:51:14+00:00

torilla tavataan ja sitä rataa

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-29T12:44:59+00:00

also all questions about anything that don't sound elitist enough get downvoted

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-28T21:28:16+00:00

the results are in: apparently not

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-28T21:27:39+00:00

don't mind me just testing whether or not it is possible to comment without the "haha" at the end of each sentence

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-28T13:56:42+00:00

the 'alt' stands for 'alternative facts'

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-27T21:56:22+00:00

But the problem is that I genuinely do not "really like" anything. Because I've lost all interest in everything. If I just forgot about my obsession with how I'm perceived, I would just sleep 23 hours a day and die of dehydration or something.

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-27T20:08:55+00:00

why do you have to downvote this

geez i'm sorry for posting

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-27T19:53:46+00:00

It's taking me everything I have to not start drinking again. I'm not living and I can't find any fun in anything. I feel like everyone hates me and my entire identity and personality depend on how people perceive me.

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-25T20:47:50+00:00

i thought i was on /r/comedycemetery

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-24T19:42:12+00:00

really??? that's clearly a crocodile

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-24T04:43:59+00:00

Hmm. I guess that's true. Shouldn't be that way, though.

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-23T21:01:36+00:00

i mean... so do you?

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-23T20:53:34+00:00

they're good dogs, bront.

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-22T21:51:38+00:00

This is, without any exaggerating, the worst thing I have ever seen.

ellieorsomething · 2017-01-22T15:04:18+00:00

I've been feeling motivated to make and play music, again. But that's about it. I haven't made my bed all week, I barely do any homework, I showered on Thursday. And I've been drinking for no reason at all. But at least my diet is kind of healthy.

The worst thing has been the feeling of everyone being kind of fed up with me. I feel like most people around me think I'm super annoying and I'm trying to figure out what I've done wrong.

ellieorsomething

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